This is it.

My mom told me this morning that I should try to be nicer to my sister. I guess my sister really thinks that I hate her. Wouldn't she be surprised to know how much I envy her. How I get so jealous at the relationship she has with our mom. I want to be nicer to her but I guess I don't know how. Things just happen, and I end up saying bratty stuff. And I regret it afterwords and I try to say sorry. But she often just laughs at me. I get laughed at a lot. I think that's my biggest insecurity. I really hate being laughed at by my family. I can handle it by friends because I often cause the laughter. With family I never do anything to be funny, yet they laugh anyways. I wish this could change. I'm not in the best mood today though so sorry for the short blog. This is all I got in me.