She.

I'm only ever like this when she's home. My mom and her are closer and they talk better and can hang out. And I get so jealous when she's home. And when she teases me my mom will laugh along at me. I try to be strong and ignore it but I can't always. It really gets to me. I love her but I'm jealous of her and my moms relationship and I hate how I'm always a third wheel. It's always been like this. It's never gonna change. And I hate it. I like it better when she's across the country. She brings out the worst in me and I can't help it. I don't know why I get excited that she is coming ever because it's always like this. It always ends in me leaving crying. And my mom and her come in 10 minutes later giving me the pity sorry. I hate this.