Happy New Years Eve

Well, I think it is time to reflect on my goals for 2012, considering it is the last day of the year. I am sad to report I didn't do too well. From what I can remember I started out my year strong but with the stresses of graduating and starting college my goals got away from me. I will be making a new list for this upcoming year of 2013 but first I think it is good to see how I did. These were my goals and maybe to you I didn't change a thing, but this is how I think I did so please no judgement. New Year goals are personal and I think it is important that we not only set them but see how we did at the end of the year. Think back to what your goals for 2012 were, hopefully you achieved at least one of them. I hope you all have had a great year in 2012, I know I did, whether or not I changed from 2011 at all.

Here is what I set out to change

1. Pray at least 2x daily. 

2. Stop biting my nails.

3. Improve my scripture study.

4. Stop caring what others think of my appearance.

Here is how I did

1. I'm still not perfect at this. But I have gotten a lot better. And I value my prayers a lot more. I have really made an effort lately to not say a "cookie cutter" prayer just for the sake to say I said one. I pray about stuff I find important. I have really come to learn that God answers my prayers. Especially while I have been off at  school I have found saying a prayer to be one of the most calming things. I remember being told that if you master daily prayers while in college then you'll do it for life. It is hard sometimes to find a quiet place to pray since I have a roommate but I have managed.

2. Well, I did really good at this at first. Like really good! I had stopped! But then with the stresses of graduating and getting everything done with high school I think I started again. And I continue to now. And I find it disgusting and wish I didn't have this terrible habit. If anyone can give me tips I'd gladly use them. The tricks like painting that gross nail polish on similar methods really do not work for me. I find I just wait til the bad taste wears off and then bite my nails down short. I wish they were longer really I do. I just don't have the will power to stop.

3. This one I didn't start out strong. It's really hard for me to sit and read my scriptures everyday. I just don't put it at high enough priority. But since taking my Book of Mormon class at school I have learned so much. I have learned to love the book more. I have learned so many interesting facts. And I'm proud to say I actually read it (the first half). I could have easily just skimmed and skipped parts and just waited til the tests to read but I didn't. I read the assigned chapters every week. Sometimes it'd really suck on Sunday because I would leave all the chapters til then but I always got it done. And I didn't just skim, I read and really tried to understand what was being said. And then I'd go to class and it'd all come together. I loved my Book of Mormon class and my teacher. I learned so much and I hope next semester I learn even more.

4. Well I don't know how to judge this one. I like to be dressed and put together and have my hair and makeup done. It makes me feel better about myself. When I have, in my opinion, a cute outfit on I tend to have a better day. I like holding myself to a standard and not wear sweat pants around to class on a daily basis. I have slipped up of course, but I notice I feel a lot worse those days. Since I didn't get ready for the day I feel off and unhappy. I do notice that I get a lot of compliments from random strangers, but I have really tried to not let that affect me. I say a quick thank you then put it out of my mind. Or at least I try to. I don't want to dwell on what others like, I want to like what I like. I have learned what I like and dislike and try not to change myself just to please others. I know many people don't like the way I dress, but I do like it so I will continue on how I am.

Merry Christmas

Remember what Christmas is about. I was looking for a good video to post for you guys and while I was my Granddaddy sent me an email with this one. Just because. And I couldn't imagine a better video to share with you all. I love hearing the Christmas story and hearing in from the Prophet and his counselors is even better. I hope everyone takes the 5 minutes to watch this. Even those of you who aren't Mormon  take the time and watch this. Christ loves everyone and this season is to remember Him. This video will help you this Christmas season to do just that. Merry Christmas!

"The spirit of Christmas is the spirit of love and of generosity and of goodness."   -President Thomas S Monson

End of my first semester at college

So my first semester is over. It was super fun and I have had a great time. And I thought it'd be important to look over my bucket list from the beginning of this year.

1. Hike the Y - I did this TWICE

2. Go tunnel singing - I did this once and I'll probably go again

3. Bare my testimony on fast Sunday - Still need to do this, I've got some time left though!

4. Ride on a motorcycle - I NEED to do this but I don't know anyone with one

5. Play some type of group game in the Library - I haven't done this yet! Weird!

6. FAKE an engagement (hopefully everyone reading this forgets about this one so my prank works!) - Still have time!

7. Go to a themed party and go ALL OUT - I haven't been to many parties so I still have gotta do this one

8. Stay up all night and go to breakfast the following morning - Haven't done this and I don't know if I really want to... I like to sleep

9. Kiss  Meet all the writers and creator of MormonProbs -Um this is no longer a goal. That kid is a jerk.

10. Go to the Festival of Colors - CAN'T WAIT FOR THIS

11. Take a spontaneous trip to SLC -I'd say I've done this. It was a date? Is that spontaneous enough?

12. Meet and take a picture with Cosmo -Ok well I did meet and take a picture with cosmo like the first week but it was with a bunch of girls I am not longer friends with so I don't have the picture, kind of a bummer

13. Go to the Hot Springs - Still need to do this, it sounds fun! But also sounds kind of dirty...

14. Go to the temple AT LEAST monthly - I've done this... except I'm gonna have to miss December... I didn't have a chance to go with finals and everything and I won't be back in Utah til January...

15. Stay awake for 48 hours -I'm not so sure I want to do this anymore... I like to sleep...

I like food a little bit...

I don't blog often because not much happens in my life. It is break and I'm home and I sleep til about 12 or 1  everyday. It's really quite nice. I just am hanging out with family and friends. And eating a lot... And waiting for my first semester grades to be posted. I want to know soooo badly. Yup thats my life. Christmas is in a few days and I think I'm most excited for the food... That proves I am a very fat person. I care more about the food over my family or presents... Oh well. Life goes on. Kendal is happy with food. Speaking of I haven't had breakfast yet.. it's 2PM.

Guess who is back home?

ME! THIS GIRL IN CURRENTLY LAYING IN HER BED IN HER ROOM IN HER HOUSE IN BINGHAMTON. And I am so happy about it. I plan to spend my first day back in my bed and in my PJ's watching TV and playing on my computer. I plan to eat yummy stuff. And forget that I have to go back west in a few weeks. I plan to have a great relaxing break. Be with my family and with my friends and have an amazing Christmas. Not having to worry about school or anything else. It's really a nice feeling being home. 4  months is a long time to be away but I'm back and going to make the most of it.

Almost done

I feel like all I ever do it say sorry for never blogging. But it's finals next week and I have just been crazy busy. I go home in one week. I am SO excited :) I am almost done! Almost home. So I am currently sitting in my LAST CLASS of the semester. And then I have finals next week. And I'll be done with my first semester of college. How cool?! Not really. So many more of them left hahaha. There is a dance tonight and I'm excited for it. Right after this I have to go and get ready. It's so fun to get ready for dances. Well, I hope you are all doing well and thank you for reading my blog. Maybe I'll blog more when I get home for break. Maybe. Probably not ha.

Sick

This is by far the worst sore throat I have ever had. It hurts to talk and swallow and do anything. I'm hungry but know that eating requires me to swallow so it makes me want to eat even less. It's just been getting worse and worse every day.  am eating cough drops like it's chocolate. I woke this morning and it was 100 times worse than the day before...and I thought it was bad yesterday. I really just want to sleep forever but I know I can't. I know I need to keep eating because I'll just get sicker if I don't eat. I am even debating on going to the student health center... and I hate going to see doctors. UGH. If anyone knows how to get rid of sore throats please tell me. I'd love you forever.

Happy Thanksgiving

Thanksgiving this year was good, but it started differently. Every year my grandpa makes everyone list something they are thankful for, but he wasn't here this year and we didn't do that. And on the drive back my brother mentions that we didn't say anything we are thankful for and so my dad has us do it. It's something small but I love those small traditions. And while it's always annoying how my grandpa makes us all wait for food for everyone to go around and say something, I think it's important to share what you are thankful for. And while I told my parents and brother in the car ride home I thought I'd tell all you guys as well. This year I am thankful for

1. Getting into BYU- I think about how different my life would be right now if I wasn't here in Utah and it scares me. Back in February I remember finding out I got in and I couldn't have been happier. I was scared. BYU had been my goal forever, and I reached it. Nothing feels better than accomplishing a long-term goal. And now that I am here I love it, sometimes I question why I am here, there are other people smarter and other people more social but I know that there is a reason I am here. I know my grades and tests and my high school career was just a little above average and I was probably on the edge for getting into BYU but there is a reason I got in. I am trying my hardest to make my most out of college. I am so thankful for BYU. I  get to not deal with all the negative aspects of college like the peer pressure for drinking and drugs and having sex and instead I am making great friends who I can be totally myself with all the time. I really love BYU, way more than I was expecting (which is saying something because I was VERY excited to come in the first place)

2. My family- I am thankful for my dad because of how hard he works for everything. He works so hard and gives me so much. He helps me with everything I need. And while I do get mad at him and we fight I know that he loves me. I am thankful for my mom because without her I'd have nothing. Yes, my dad works hard but without my mom I'd never get a single nice thing in my life. But I also know my mom is understanding and  when I mess up she always forgives me. I'm thankful for everything she has taught me, which is a lot, I couldn't begin to list them. I'm thankful for my sister, me and her do fight but I love her so much, I wish I showed it better. She has been such a great example to me and I don't think she'll ever really know how much she has influenced me. I love that she is close by now that I am at school and I really don't spend enough time with her. It's just hard balancing school but knowing she is close by and there for me whenever I need it is amazing. And lastly, Jacob. I love this guy so much. I can't be with him and not be smiling and laughing. He is the best little brother. He is funny and silly and shy at the same time, it's just so Jacob. There really is no way to explain how amazing he is. He adds so much to our family and I miss him so much while I am at college. WAY more than I thought I was going to, but all these little things remind me of him and his silly ways. I am so thankful for my family and for everything they do for me and I know everything about me is because of how I was raised and how they have influenced me and I love them for that. 

3. The Gospel- I know Jesus Christ lived and died for me. I know that He atoned for my sins and I am so thankful for that. I know that God loves me and that is something I am so thankful for. That knowledge has helped me on many days here at college. Feeling alone sucks but I am always able to get past it because I know my Heavenly Father loves me and that He is always with me. I am thankful that Joseph Smith questioned religion and went to God. I am thankful for Joseph Smith and that God trusted a 14 year old boy enough to start and restore this gospel of Christ through him. I know the Book of Mormon is true and I love learning more about it. My Book of Mormon class is one of my favorites at BYU, 1 because it's an easy grade but 2 because I am learning so much. I really pay so much attention in it and am learning to love this book like none other. I am thankful for this Gospel because I know so much I have is because of my steadfastness in it. 

4. Being privileged enough to have grown up in a strong Latter-day Saint home. I can't imagine my life without growing up LDS. It's such a blessing to know everything. All my questions can always be answered because of this Gospel. I love that I have been able to grow up LDS and have my home ward. I know so many of them, who I regrettably don't know as well I should, love me and care about me. I love this church so much and I am thankful for everyone back home who has taught me throughout my life. While I sometimes feel I don't know anything about the Gospel- I know what matters most. And I know things because of the awesome and caring people back in Binghamton who have taught me in Primary, Young Women's, and Seminary. I am thankful for all the time these leaders have given to the church and how selfless they have been, all contributing to me and my testimony in this church. Thank you.

5. My friends back home- I'm thankful for Morgan and that she is so caring and always there for you. I'm thankful for Sabrina and that she is so accepting and not judgmental at all. I'm thankful for Jessica and how easy she is to talk to and that I've been able to tell her anything and she gives me honest opinion. I'm thankful for Emily and that she is so reliable, I know I can always lean to her and she'll be there for me. I'm thankful for Shaneka and that she is just so funny, she can always put you in a better mood and make you happy. I am thankful for them as a group because I love that we have kept each other good. I will forever be thankful for how good my friends are- I got very lucky and haven't ever had to deal with feeling left out because my friends were going to some party. I know that we can share anything and even though we are all away at different college we can still be friends. 

6. My friends here at college- To start my roommate Naomi is pretty dang awesome. I really don't think I could have gotten luckier. She is so understanding and accepting of me... pretty sure I don't deserve it all. I love that I can tell her anything and that she is open about what she thinks about stuff. I like how she is clean so it makes me be cleaner...most of the time. I really am thankful for Naomi and how great of a roommate she is and how we have become such awesome roommate friends :P Then there is Erica and Hayley and Rachel and Eliza and Kim and Lisa and Brooke and Sami who are just so fun and amazing. I love hanging out with them and I love that I feel so close to them and can tell them stuff so easily. They really have made college awesome.

7. My other friends that don't fit into those categories really like Misa who I am so thankful for. I wish we saw each other more at college but I realize we are both ridiculously busy. That being said she is still the most amazing friend and is always there for me. There is Joanna who I've gotten 10 time closer to now at college and I love that. She basically has moved into my room which is totally fine by me :) It's actually weirder for her not to be in my room one night that it is for her to be in it, and I love that. I like having Book of Mormon with her and meeting her in the stairwell to walk together at 8:43... except that never really happens. And I'm thankful for Whitney and that she has tried so hard to keep in touch with me. I don't want to lose her friendship and I like when we skype and text and tell each other about our friends and boys. I'm thankful for Marshall. I am SOOOO proud of him and that he is on a mission. He has the strongest testimony and loves this Gospel so much. I could go on for hours about how proud of him I am but that'd bore you guys...

I wish I reflected more often about what I'm thankful for. I have been blessed so much and this isn't even a dent. There are so many great things in my life and I should be more aware of them. I hope you all have had a wonderful Thanksgiving and have been able to reflect on your own life. And now with Thanksgiving over that means its Christmas season! Who else is pumped?!

Fun Date!

I know this is late... but I went on a really fun date last Friday and wanted to tell you all about it...even though I've probably told everyone already. Well it started out by me and the guy walking down one of the streets in Provo and we had time to kill. We noticed a bunch of small little ethnic restaurants so we decided to go into each one and try something small. It was really fun and I liked the things we tried. After that we met up with another couple and went to this trampoline gymnastics place thing... There were trampolines and foam pits and a rock climbing wall and a trapeze over one of the foam pits and trampoline basketball. It was a lot of fun. Me just talking about it doesn't do it justice. I actually went back to the place today with my brother. I want to go back again too. It makes me really tired though. It's a pure hour and a half of jumping around- that's really tiring. Well yeah- my brother and parents are in town for Thanksgiving. I'll write about that another time hopefully. Hope everyone is having a great break and holiday :)

I suck at blogging

Sorry for this random blogging. There just isn't much to say and I'm busy! Yesterday I was on campus busy the entire day. From 9 to 6:42 I was on campus in class or with TA's or something. It was rough. I hate days like that. I really like breaks and having time to chill in the library or come back down to my room. But yeah, I haven't been up to much. My parents come this weekend and I am SO excited. I miss them and Jacob so much more than I ever thought I was going to. I can't wait to be done with school on Monday (I have one class and I have to meet with a TA after that class but then I'm done and ready for break!) But I get to spend time with family and just relax. I don't have a ton of homework either.. I don't think I do at least... So yup, that's really all I had to say. Sorry I don't blog but there isn't much to talk about. I live a boring college life. I'm just trying to do well in my classes (and I am now...) and I hang out with friends...but I also sit on my computer way too much. Oh well. Hope you are all having a great day :) 

My weekend

I'm really happy. Today started off a bit off but it has ended really good. There is a boy here at school and he's really nice and sweet and he likes me a lot. And I like him too. And it's just fun. And I like my friends here- I had such a fun time with them Friday night- we went sledding! And made an AWESOME snowman. You can stalk my Facebook for pictures. Saturday I was super lazy all morning then finally got up and ready and went on a date with the boy from above :) and then I went to the last home football game. I went to every home game this year. I really love football. Even though we aren't the best I still get pretty into the games. Saturday's game was FREEZING. I couldn't feel my toes by the time I left.. and I left a little after half time.. and I got there late. But it was fun while I was there. I saw Marshall which was super nice- he enters the MTC on Wednesday. I am so excited for him. And I'm so proud of him. And I can't wait to get his letters and hear all about his amazing stories. Well today was Sunday  I had church. I went to Brit's for dinner which was really nice. It's nice to get off campus and be in a home once in a while- as much as I love college being in a home with family is always relaxing. Plus it helps that I have the CUTEST nephew on the planet. I for sure am his favorite aunt. He gets so happy when he see's me! I'm very grateful that I am this close to him and get to see him a lot. Well I hope you all have enjoyed my little weekend update. Can't wait for this week to be over- I have a full week of classes, 2 essays due at the end of it. But on Saturday MY FAMILY IS COMING TO UTAH! And I couldn't be more excited. I miss them all so much. I really didn't think I was going to miss them as much as I did. And I get super jealous of the family stuff they do. And I miss having dinner with them at night (especially when they make my favorite thing ever- like crab legs- like they did tonight!!! UNFAIR.) But they are coming! So soon. I can't wait. This week is probably going to last forever. Oh and one last thing HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANDPA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know he reads this and I'm glad he does. I don't call them enough but hopefully because he reads my blog he can know about my life :) Well Happy Birthday! Thank you for being such an awesome grandpa! I love you :)

Sick

I have a headache. It hurts to move around. It feels like my head is beating. And it's making me feel nauseous. Any strong smells at all make me want to puke. And I don't have the energy to do anything but be in bed. I hate this. It's friday night and I'm in my room. The basketball home opener is tonight and I'm missing it and I'm sad. This sucks.

My life is kind of boring. Sorry.

Joanna tells me I need to blog more. Which is weird coming from her considering I'm with her a majority of my day... And I tell her everything that I would blog about anyways. But basically nothing has been going on. Like I honestly can't think of anything significant to tell you all. Sorry I live a boring college life. I go to class, I do my homework, I eat (a lot...). Oh I've been called as an Indexer at church. And I actually really love it- it's super addicting. I've only done it for one day and I have over 100 names indexed. It's a good thing I don't use my laptop in most my classes or that's probably what I'd be doing in them. My parents are coming out next weekend for Thanksgiving and I am super excited to see them. That's really all I've got to look forward to right now. Well sorry this really doesn't say much but there just isn't much to say so BYE.

Dilemma

I could go out with friends and see a movie I really don't care to see at all or I could stay in by myself and watch Netflix. I know I should be social but I really do not want to see this movie. I feel like if I went I'd probably pay 10 dollars to see a movie I don't care about and then fall asleep in the theater. So I just decided: I'm staying in. On a Friday night. At college. But who cares- I don't. Having Kendal time is great. I've got the room to myself for a while and I can lay under my heated blanket. This sounds great. Oh maybe I'll make popcorn too! See now I'm excited for my night in. YAY. Blogging always helps me make a decision. 

This week...

What a week. It started out terrible. It was by far my worst week at college. I was missing my family a lot. I was getting behind in my classes and I had two tests that I was not ready for. And I just couldn't handle it all. Monday and Tuesday I was a wreck and crying a lot. It was just bad. But after changing things around my week has gotten significantly better. My roommate Naomi and the other girls in my hall all decorated my room and wrote me really nice notes to cheer me up. Misa brought me candy. Everyone was just super nice. And I really needed that. But like I said- things are better. A lot better. Today I did a 5K- the Zombie Run. There were like legit obstacles to get through and people dressed up as Zombies trying to scare you. It was pretty interesting. Afterwards I went shopping. It was so nice to go shopping- it's been so long since I have. I got TWO orange things! ORANGE. I am so picky with orange. I think it is a good fall color. Tonight I think we are going to a Ski Lift ride which I am excited for. I have to give a talk in church tomorrow- that I am NOT looking forward to. But at least I'm getting it out of the way. I think this next following week is going to be a nice easy week. Or I'm hoping too. And it's Halloween next week. I don't know what to be- if you have any great ideas you should tell me :) Kay-thanks-bye

OH and Brit did the race and drove us to the mall. She is super awesome. I love her :)

Promise to blog later

I have a lot to blog about. It's been rough but I can feel things are going to get better. But I am busy and have a test tomorrow so I can't tell you all tonight. But I will. I promise.

Quote thought

"You have never really lived until you have done something for someone who can never repay you."

I want to do that. I want to be so selfless and be able to serve others so greatly. I want to change someones life. I don't know how I'll do that. I don't know when I'll do that. But at some point I'm doing to do something, for someone, something they can never do back. I don't want to be above them, or have them always feel like they are indebted to me, but I want to truly help someone. Maybe a mission will give me that opportunity. Maybe I'll find it another way. But I just came across that quote and I love it and there are my thoughts. Have a good weekend :)

Some Nights

 

So I am slightly obsessed with this song. I have listened to it on replay for days now. Naomi and Joanna want to kill me because I play it so often. But it's just super good. And there is one part in the song where the guys voice gets like high? Yeah that part is amazing. So go ahead and listen :) and become obsessed like me. What's funny is that I have listened to this song for a while, like since last winter, but just now am I becoming obsessed. And it's like super popular on iTunes. Well thats all I have to say. Have a good weekend :)

Missionaries

Missionary: Someone who leaves their family for two years so that others can be with theirs for Eternity.

(listen as you read)

I'm at that age where my closest guy friends are preparing to leave for a mission. And I am so excited for them. BEYOND excited. But when I really think about it I'm a little sad. Some of my best friends are going to be leaving for 2 years. And in those 2 years they are going to change so much, for the better yes, but still they won't be the same boys that I know them as now. A mission changes a boy into a man and it is really amazing to see. You meet these people that come to your ward and they are mature and respectful men who love the Gospel of Christ, when a year ago they only had thoughts about girls and football and video games. I love missionaries and all that they do. But it's just crazy how much a mission can change a person. The Spirit has such an influence over them because they spend their entire day for God, serving God and doing everything they are prompted and asked to do. I can't fathom how a boy, my age or a little older, is able to go and do anything they are asked to do without complaint and often do things without being asked. And don't even get my started on their testimonies. Like seriously, a missionaries testimony is the purest and more sure thing. When a man is out serving for 2 years and spends his whole time doing what God desires of him he sure learns a thing or two about the Gospel. There is nothing in this world I love to see more than to see a man using his Priesthood power. A mission is one of the most important things a man can do to uphold his Priesthood calling. I admire missionaries and everything they do for others.

Now notice I've been talking about Elder Missionaries. This is in no way meaning that a mission doesn't change a girl. Guarantee it does. But I often think when a girl is preparing for a mission she is much more mature to start out, than a boy is.  Sister Missionaries are the sweetest people you will meet. They know the Gospel and every little fact about it. I think they are more compassionate than anyone else in the world. The spirit in a Sister Missionary is bright. That's really the only way I can think to describe it. They are able to relate and help others in ways men are unable to and it is truly a blessing that Sisters are able to serve.

As many of you probably know, the missionary age has been changed for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. Men are now able to go as young as 18 and women as young as 19. It is going to be interesting to see how this affects the youth of the church in the next coming years. How many more girls will start planning on a mission at a younger age. How many men will have to mature and prepare throughout high school instead of using the transition year between high school and college. It's going to be different. It's already different here at BYU. People are changing their entire plans. Girls have had plans set for years but now they are changing them- because a mission is that important.

I am going to serve God and be a full time missionary for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. I have known I was going to do this for years but now the option of going early has been in my thoughts. I am praying about it every morning and night. I am reading my Patriarchal Blessing and really trying to figure things out. On paper it makes sense for me to go after this year. With my plans of medical school it would be smarter to go on a mission after I turn 19 in April. And I have been planning to go on a mission before this announcement but still, I wonder if I am ready. Like I had said, when I think of missionaries I think of mature men and women devoting their entire life to God. They are selfless and caring and servants to God. I can't wait to become one but still, I wonder, am I going to ever be good enough? Will I ever know the scriptures as well as the missionaries that I have met know them? Will I have a strong enough testimony to serve perfectly? Will I always know when to follow a prompting from God? At this point I do not feel ready. I do not feel I have the strength it takes to be a missionary. And while I want to leave as soon as possible and serve God I know I am not ready as of now. That being said, I obviously cannot leave right now. I am only 18 and 6 months and 4 days old. In another 6 months I am going to be finishing up my freshmen year of college here at BYU. And maybe by then I will feel ready. Maybe by then I will have started or even put in papers for a mission. I have a lot of growing up to do and a lot of learning to gain before I will feel ready. Whether it takes me 6 months or a year or 3 years to become ready I don't know. But I will serve a mission when I am ready and when I know it is the right time. And I know God will have prepared me for it. I know once I am a missionary I will be prepared and truly be God's servant. Therefore, there is really only one thing left to say on this topic and that is: I hope they call me on a mission, When I have grown a foot or two. I hope by then I will be ready to teach and preach and work as missionaries do. I hope that I can share the gospel with those who want to know the truth. And serve and help the Lord while I am in my youth.

Thursday Night Class

Ha I'm in class right now. I hate this thursday night class. It's super boring. Its a health career exploration class. In theory it'd be a great help to me- that is if I wasn't in NV last year. I have seen so many different careers in the health field already and I know what I like and dislike. Therefore, this class is pointless to me. BUT it is easy. I just have to show up. And it gives me an hour to just play on the computer and relax and not feel bad about wasting time. Because I am in a class I can't actually do other homework and pay attention to what I'm doing so legit the only thing I can do (besides pay attention to the speaker ha) is to play on the computer. Today the speaker is a dentist. I hate teeth. Therefore this is pointless. But I am here, and I clicked in so I have the points for the day. The grade for this class is basically all attendance. Which is good and bad. Yeah well, sorry for boring you, but I am bored. I'll go back to pinterest.

Boy rambling

I'm honestly just quite confused with this whole thing. When I was thinking of BYU I was thinking of all the creepy RM's who just want to get married. But honestly- I haven't really talked to any RM's at all. Which is good considering I'm planning for a mission. However, I do see a lot of cute pre-mission boys. And boyyyy they are attractive. Like seriously- why are Mormon boys so much more attractive than anyone else? Well, anyhow, there is one boy I have been keeping my eye on. We are friends but I wouldn't mind becoming more that's for sure. He is attractive but also super nice and funny. He is super athletic too which is an amazing plus. Then there are some other boys in my ward and that I just see around a lot that are attractive. Oh man, there is one guy in my ward that is wow. I literally can't help but look at him and wonder like how the heck is he SO attractive. But seriously, that one boy that I am crushing on right now that I just mentioned- I just cannot figure out what to do to drop hints. I mean it's a little intimidating because I consider him out of my league, I don't know if he really is or not but I feel like he is. Which makes me nervous to do anything about my crush. But I love that we have actually become friends. I was worried we were just going to be class mates but I think we have gotten to the friendship point. Now I just over analyze everything we talk about. Hahahaha, well sorry for my rambling but I have a meeting in 30 minutes and I am trying to waste time. I was going to work on an essay but I realized I left all my stuff I need to write it down in my room. I know that you all just LOVED reading about my thoughts about the boys here :) 

Mission

Just like every other Mormon girl in the world my life has changed this weekend. I can now serve a mission like SOON. At 19. Instead of 21. I have been planning to serve a mission at 21 but now that I can sooner, like wow. I am going to be a missionary. And I can't wait. But I have a lot to do before then. I have so much to learn and growing up to do. I am looking forward to the future and it's going to be interesting to see how things work out in the next year. I hope you are looking forward to see what happens as well.

October Third

It's October Third. And it's a Wednesday. Do people not understand that you HAVE to wear pink today? It's like a double reference to Mean Girls. I had a test today. I did pretty well. I wish I knew what to blog about here. Someone needs to tell me something to blog about. I need ideas. And free time. I should be doing homework.

I've got tests!

Sorry I never blog but there are midterms going on right now. Who knew how difficult college was? I didn't! I haven't really done anything either so there is not much to blog about. Maybe if I was living an exciting fun college life I'd blog more but I go to class and eat sometimes and try to sleep as much as possible. Oh! I went ice blocking for FHE on monday. That was like the only fun thing I've done in a while. I am taking a chem test today. And bio tomorrow. So instead of blogging I feel I should spend some time studying right now. Hope you understand for my lack of writing here. Follow my twitter if you wanna know about my life- seriously I'm on that all the time. So much faster and easier. Well, hope you have a fantastic day! And hopefully I do something fun and blog about it this weekend.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MISA

She's definitely my best friend. And I love that we go to the same school finally, although that doesn't mean I see her anymore. It's just hard- college is busy. I wish I had more chill time but whatever. This isn't about that. This is about Misa. Because today is her BIRTHDAYYYYY. YAYYY. I love birthdays! I just got her a few things and went and stopped by her place for like a minute because she is a busy person (I mean who isn't on their birthday) but I'm glad I got to see her. We need to plan to do something weekly- does that sound good to you? Ha, I know she reads this. Anyways, to all you who don't know Misa- you are missing out. She's super chill which is good for me because I am so not. Shes nice but not in the annoying way that makes you feel like you are a horrible person for judging others. She gets along with everyone and I am super jealous of that. But basically she is just awesome and she is 19 today :) HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Way to let me down Cougars.

REALLY? COME ON. You tried so hard until the end. Jamal Williams- I have nothing bad to say about him. Go Freshy for getting a touchdown for the Cougs. But the rest of you?! Riley Nelson? Riley Stephenson????!!!! The ref's kept giving you chances. They found penalties almost every play to help you out. It was your game!!!! YOU CHOKED. You were given  multiple tries at the field goal. HOW DID YOU MISS IT. That is what you are trained to do! I'm so angry. You tried so hard the last quarter, up until that last 8 seconds. You gave up. And stupid Riley Nelson wasn't doing his job. You are supposed to THROW the ball Nelson. Come on. No one gave up on this game but you guys. Everything was going in your favor. HOW DID YOU MESS UP. I don't think I've ever been so angry. Especially over a football game. That was just pathetic. I'm embarrassed. It was so close. They were practically handing you the chance to tie. How did you miss that field goal. These past few weeks I've loved BYU Football, I've had a slight obsession over the team even. But I am just embarrassed. THEY WERE HANDING YOU THE TIE. The only thing that makes this okay is that on the plus side, there are only 99 days til Christmas :)

BYU Womens Soccer!

I went to a womens soccer game tonight. It was so fun :) We won! I left with like 10 minutes left but we were up by 4 I think? I really liked it which I was surprised. It's a lot more intense than I would have thought. The girls are just constantly falling to the ground and shoving eachother. Sports in college are all pretty intense. College has been a lot of work and I wish we had a break at some point but we don't. Days here just last so long and there is so much to do. But I am enjoying it. That's all I had to say :)

Random! But at least I blogged...

I never blog but I am at college. And I do homework. And then I sit around hoping for plans. Actually I mean I guess I do do stuff (hahaha) but its all so scattered and unplanned and I don't even remember most of the things I do in a day here. Does anyone else feel like a day at college lasts the same amount of time a day in high school lasts? The days are so long here and I do a lot but also feel like I have a lot of free time. Maybe I am just getting really good at time management... I never was before but hey! I'm not complaining (me not complaining-whattttt!?) But it's nice because I always have my homework done and am able to go do stuff while other girls are stuck worrying about how they will finish their homework. I'm finally kind of learning the names of the girls in my hall. I knew I was bad at names but I never realized how AWFUL I was til I came here to college. Like seriously, I introduce myself a lot throughout the day and meet new people but I never remember who they are. I'm fairly good at remembering faces though so I can say hi but I never remember their name, I feel bad but I figure I'll eventually learn them- right?? Well I didn't really have much to say just I felt like I should write something since it's almost been a week. I would blog and tell you about all my fun adventures but I feel like I just do typical college things like go to class and do homework and eat outrageous amounts of food. I go to the football games and then to the church functions. It's fun and I like it here even though getting to know people is difficult sometimes. Hope you all are having a great time in your life!

It's my second week and...

I've hiked the Y (which is a LOT harder than people were saying.) I've met some of the guys from MormonProbs. I've met and taken a picture with Cosmo. I'm getting things done! But also like with my school work I've been really good at doing my work before night time so I'm free to do other fun things...except I never have anything to do. Oh well I know it's still early on in the semester and I'm still getting to know people. Things will work out and be great. This is just the beginning.

Getting my bucketlist done!

GUESS WHAT. I made it through the first week of college! SO I am officially counting the "go to BYU" from my bucketlist as done. YAY! It hasn't been terrible but I can tell it's going to be a lot of work. Blahhhh. Also! I can check off run in a 5K. I really should do a separate post about my 5K but I'm lazy. It was good but very hilly which sucked. But that's two things off! YAYYYYY. So fun. Can't wait to get into college more and make more friends and get into a routine. This has been fun but I am a routine type of person. But anyways, this is supposed to be about getting my bucket list done. I have 50 things on it and there are some difficult things. It is all things that I want to happen in my life though so thats why I think I will manage them all. Also, because I am perfect and I get what I want and this is what I want.

College is fun!

Tonight was the first football game. I love football. I understand it and so I actually enjoy watching it. BYU football is fun. A lot about college is fun. My roommate is great. I am doing really well at keeping up on my classes and the work. I think I will like a lot of my classes. Everything is really going well. The most difficult decisions I make are what to wear though. Why am I so picky and high maintenance with my appearance? Oh well, I receive a lot of compliments for it so it's great. Well that is all I had to say. Hope you are doing good yourself!

Sitting in the Library

Just chillen here. I have a three hour break and I would do homework but I can't get my books til tomorrow. Sucks. My first two classes were good and made me less scared. Yup.

Move In and NSO

Under my bed- storage

Next to my bed- mini fridge

Sink

Desk

 

Closet

 

Bed

 

Wednesday: Well move in day was crazy. As my family was getting ready to drive me over to BYU I started getting really nervous and I was having a slight panic attack and freaking on everyone. I couldn't get all of my stuff to fit into the car (don't worry my dad got almost everything, and we brought the other stuff over after!) When we got here I was just ready to get into my room but the RA's all had to talk to us about stupid fire safety - I like fire thank you very much! But anyways I do like my room, you can see stuff in the pictures. It's a lot darker than most other peoples dorms and I think that is because there is a large tree right outside my room (lovely view right?) I'm happy because everything actually fit! I was very surprised! AND I even have space to spare. Isn't that just amazing? I have spare room?! But move in night was fun there was a carnival/dance type thing and it felt a lot like EFY which I love EFY so it was great. But I was very tired and sweaty by the end of the night. Oh well, no one looks good after a dance right?

 

Thursday: Sadly, I didn't sleep well from wed to thurs. Maybe because I was nervous or missed my parents or because the bed wasn't what I was used to. But I tossed and turned so it made for a nervous start to thursday. But luckily one thing of good news- my tuition and everything was figured out so that is one less stress. So I went to breakfast and used my meal card for the first time (I was kind of worried I'd give it to them and have it rejected and everyone would stare at my like I am a weirdo... I really need to stop thinking up scenarios in my head) but it all worked out. I wasn't a fan of the food but it was what I expected. Orientation was fun, I was awkwardly early to my group even though I was there an hour later than the start time for check in. Whatever, but my group was fun. I really enjoyed the devotional (actually it was called a convocation!) It was nice to get to know stuff about the campus and how the school started and what not. But then we went on a campus tour- I didn't wear great shoes but I still had fun. I liked my group and we were all able to make the best of the long walking. And I might be a little less lost on campus (actually the second I was left alone to find my way I got lost soooo... I don't know how  much this tour helped!) But then I left orientation because my family wanted to meet up. Which yeah I want to be with my family and I am going to miss them a lot but I want to be able to make friends here and missing parts orientation might make it a little harder. But I came back and went to the pep rally with Kallina. I like that I have her here with me. That was fun but then I just went back to the room and had a chill night.

 

Friday: There was a really great devotional Friday morning and I got super teary-eyed. I hardly knew the people I was around so that's embarrassing. Actually I've done stuff to embarrass myself all weekend and I think I'm learning to accept myself and how much of a mess I am. Oh wells. So there was just random orientation stuff like getting to know your college and major. It made me excited and more sure that biology will be a good fit for me. And then I went to a pre-health/law/business meeting. It was great but I knew a lot of the information already (yah NV) but what happened at the end is SO AWKWARD. I was waiting to talk to the presenter lady and thank her (yes I am one of those people) and this guy comes up to me and is like "HEY! IANUZI! WHATS GOING ON!" he was really loud and obnoxious and he KNEW me. He was all like "so you are still interested in becoming a doctor? Ob/Gyn right" And when I said yes he was like "yeah the way you talked about the births you saw made it seem like you loved the field" and basically we had a 5 minute conversation and it proved that he KNEW who I was. Like knew all this stuff about me I haven't really told anyone at BYU yet like stuff about NV. And during the conversation I tried to find out who he is without being rude and asking straight up so I was like "so where are you living" thinking maybe he knew me from back home and was going here and I just didn't know him but he is living at home, here, in utah. He said it was only about a 15 minute drive. WHO IS THIS KID. I am still extremely creeped out and confused but also I find it funny. After this experience though I started going back to my dorms and started feeling lonely because I didn't know anyone to go hang out with. I sat in my room for maybe 30 minutes (there is never any free time here!) before Misa asked me to go meet her at the library and then go to her apartments to see them. This was nice to see her again after a month or so but I can't wait to hear about Australia!!! Anyways I saw her new place its nice and really close to me but on my way back to the dorms on my own I got lost. Like majorly extremely lost. I walked up this HUGE hill like it was killer but I got the top and realized I wasn't in the right place but saw stairs so I took them all the way back down (pointless right) and then at the bottom I saw a tunnel and I knew I needed to go through a tunnel to get back so I was like "yay not lost anymore" but it was the wrong tunnel. So at this point I go and ask how to get to my dorm, it was like 5 minutes away so that's good. I then went to dinner. HIGHLIGHT. I went alone which was scary but I sat with two girls who were nice and we were talking and guess who comes sits with us because he knew one of  the girls. JAKE. From MormonProbs. I didn't recognize him at first but while the two of them were talking I realized it was him based on the conversation. I was freaking out internally. That means I like have 1/4 of 1 item done on this bucket list! But after I went to do a scavenger hunt and it was fun and then I went to a dance extravaganza thing which was alright. I got free ice cream and it was yummy. I met some more people here and I am very pleased with the friends I am making :) Ha. Friday was a busy but very very fun day!

 

Saturday: This was RACE DAY. I ran a 5K. I was not fast at all but I finished the race! First one! It was a lot more hilly than I expected which sucked but I got through it. Afterwards I went back to BYU and lazed around for a while. Between no sleeping and running the race I was TIRED. But I couldn't sleep because I had things to do in my room. And then I left my room around 3 and went to find all my classes for next week. I don't want to be the lost freshman (we all know I will be though.) I then met up with my family on campus and figured out stuff for books and for my computer (I can finally go on the real Internet and not the guest one! YAY!) But this whole time I have been really tired and moody and I think combined with my parents leaving I was really upset and kept crying. So embarrassing right? But I went to my dorm after they left and showered and de-stressed then got ready to go to the final NSO event thing. It was okay, not as fun as the Wednesday night dance. The adults were being way strict about everything. BUT GUESS WHAT I DID. I crowd surfed! Yeah that's right! It wasn't for very long but I got up there. I had to ask 5 different guys before 2 agrees to help me up. Everyone was too chicken thinking I'd hurt myself! Well I didn't so ha! And guess what else? I met the creator of MormonProbs tonight. I didn't recognize him at first (but he recognized me, guess my stalking was like legit right?) but I guess I wasn't expecting to see him at a BYU party. Still am not sure how he was even there but whatever. I met him! THAT'S 2/4! or 2/3... I am now confused as to how many there are of them. I should really figure it out so I know when I will have completed that task on my bucket list for freshman year. So Saturday ended fun but I can tell I am going to really miss my family.

BYU Freshman Year Bucket List

This is probably self explanatory but basically I want to have a great freshman year. I've googled a bunch of stuff and talked to people and this is the list I've come up with. Yes I know I already have a separate bucket list on my blog but this one is solely for BYU Freshman Year. And I am going to use some of those here because why not? It's my list. Ready? Here it is:

1. Hike the Y
2. Go tunnel singing
3. Bare my testimony on fast Sunday
4. Ride on a motorcycle
5. Play some type of group game in the Library
6. FAKE an engagement (hopefully everyone reading this forgets about this one so my prank works!)
7. Go to a themed party and go ALL OUT
8. Stay up all night and go to breakfast the following morning
9. Kiss  Meet all the writers and creator of MormonProbs
10. Go to the Festival of Colors
11. Take a spontaneous trip to SLC
12. Meet and take a picture with Cosmo
13. Go to the Hot Springs
14. Go to the temple AT LEAST monthly
15. Stay awake for 48 hours

Here! In Utah!

I'm in Utah. I was on the plane and thinking about how I wouldn't be flying back home with my parents in a week. It's just so odd! I talked to Kallina for over an hour today and I am very excited to be near her. But we talked about how in a few days when we want to talk we don't have to just talk on the phone but are just a few minute walk away from eachother. That will be very nice. Also, I think I am going to like having Brit so close. It makes me a lot less scared to be so far away from my parents. Well is it ironic that I have been listening to Home by Phil Phillips (is that his REAL name? Like what parents would do that?!) basically all day. This place is all my home now. I am here more than I am in New York. I have to go make friends and make them my family. I am terrified that I will actually find friends and not just rely on all the people I already know. I know that I am very lucky that I do know people going to my school already but I want to make new friends. Make new friends but keep the old right? That's what I want. Anyways, tomorrow we are visiting BYU. My school. I am worried about my classes but I like to think that I made it into BYU for a reason and I must be smart enough to do well in the classes or  I wouldn't be here. So that theory helps calm my nerves a bit. Well, to end this post why don't you listen to this song? :)

P.S. I'll be trying to blog as much as possible these next few days! It's the start of my college experince and I want to let everyone close to me know about it- even if I don't have the chance to physicially tell you about it.

Last day in Binghamton!

This is my last day/night in binghamton until I leave for college. Isn't that crayyyy?! I'M GOING TO COLLEGE! And I am pumped, terrified, excited, anxious, happy, and worried all at the same time. All my bags are out in the car already because I wanted to do it now so I wouldn't have to in the morning. We are leaving early tomorrow morning and going to Utah. We are staying with Brit of course. There is so much to do monday and tuesday. I really am hoping for the best. My mom has been avoiding and trying not to think about the fact that I am leaving. When she talks about it I see how she is happy and excited for me to go off and experience the great times of college but she is REALLY sad to be losing her little girl. That is why she avoids thinking about it and if I bring up something like "this is my last..." or "I won't be able to help with this anymore" she gets really upset. But I know I'll call her a lot... It's just up to her to answer!

New Background

Do you like the new background and set up? I do. I thought with all the upcoming changes in my life I'd change my blog a little. I am kind of loving the chevron pattern that is so popular right now. It's a nice twist to average stripes. And we all know I adore stripes :)

I am leaving soon...

Waking up this morning it hit me. I am leaving in a few days. I am going to Utah, and not just for a week or so but for months! When my family leaves I won't be going with them! Last night was one of my last nights in this bed for a while. I am actually leaving and not going to see my mom and dad everyday. Its up to me to eat healthy and go to bed and take care of myself. My mom won't be there to remind me to take veggies at dinner. Like how am I supposed to take care of myself? I am so irresponsible and I am so going to just eat ice cream for dinner for a week. Guarantee. I have so much packing to do still :( My room is a mess so I don't feel like cleaning it but I have to to be able to pack. I really am doubting myself and whether I am actually ready to go to college. I now understand the people who take a year off after high school. Man why didn't I think to do that?! Just have another year to keep from going away and being on my own. I don't want to be in charge of myself. I want my mom to come with me and do my laundry and remind me to clean my room and to eat healthy-ish. Ugh, how am I going to survive college? I don't want to go to my classes, they all seem like they will be difficult. I just want to stay home and watch netflix and eat ice cream.

Top TEN Most Worn

If you know me at all you know I love fashion. I am a total nerd/prep (it's a very fine line and it's my style so I can walk the line if I want!) I love fashion blogs and wish I had the talent or time or skill or knowledge to start one. One post I love reading is a fashions blogger must haves or most worn items. Fashion Staples. I have put some thought (some= a lot) into what I wear most often. Those who see me regularly may argue about some of the items I will list but hey, this is my blog this is what I think okay?  Well here they are: my top 10 most worn items!

1. Brown Boat Shoes (Sperry Top Sider)

(look at the shoes, not the people...)

I got these lovelies I think around 8th or 9th grade. I didn't wear them much at first, mostly because I thought they looked manly. I guess I can still see why I thought that, but as my style has evolved I have found I do love manly touches in my fashion. But these sperry's get a lot of wear. They are broken in so well and I just always feel comfortable wearing them. When I want comfort but to feel styled, they are most go to. Some people go to black converse (which was once me) others go to flip flops (doesn't everyone though) but I go to these wondrous shoes. They have withheld a great deal of wear and I am grateful for them. I hope to keep them for many more years!!

2. Men's White Oxford (Ralph Lauren)

When you find something that works, get two. Such a classic piece, seems simple enough that it'd make it into my most worn items. But I can guarantee that I wear my oxfords more than the average joe, bob, alex, and mike ALL put together. Whenever I am feeling less than stellar, this is my piece. It makes me look so much more put together than I am actually feeling. Notice that I wear a men's fit oxford. I feel it is not so form fitting this making it most casual. I can wear an oxford with jeans or a skirt. I can wear it to church school or just hanging out with my friends. I would say wearing an oxford to me is what wearing a Vneck is to other people. Well why white you may ask? Because white is so clean and crisp of course! White is classic and can be paired with anything! If you don't own a white oxford I highly suggest to getting one.

3. Brown Leather Belt (Abercrombie and Fitch)

(notice the belt I am wearing...)

My mom bought me this as a Christmas present one year. But it was November time and I had an outfit that would have been PERFECT if it had a brown leather belt. Luckily my mom had gotten it early and being the great mother she is she gave it to me early. I had no idea then how much wear it would get. I literally wear it almost everyday. I guess I just always feel like it completes the outfit. There isn't much to say about this piece because its so simple but it definitely gets a lot of wear.

4. Khaki Skirt (Old Navy)

I wanted a khaki skirt for almost a year before I got this one back around 9th grade. I just knew it was going to get a lot of wear. It's such a simple and classic piece and could be paired with almost everything in my wardrobe. I noticed this past year just how often I was wearing it and so I then put it into the back of my closet to try and keep myself from over wearing it. I think it worked but I am very much looking forward to this fall and wearing it. I've got outfits already planned with it (am I the only one who pre-plans outfits?)

5. Dark rinse Skinny's (American Eagle)

(notice the jeans I am wearing)

This is probably a most worn for about 90% of the female population. Skinny jeans are just so common. And the ones from American eagle? EVERYONE owns them. In all colors. I prefer dark rinse because it is fact that they are most flattering. I wear them with a button up or with sweaters or often with both layered together :) They work with sperrys or converse or flats or flipflops and boots! And I guess heels too, I'm just not a heel wearer myself so I don't care about that as much. But there isn't much to say about jeans, they are such an essential piece of clothing there was no one they wouldn't make this list.

6. Leopard Flats (Target)

(notice the flats I am wearing... sorry couldn't find a good picture!)

I got these flats for about 3 dollars. I just randomly saw them on sale one time and bought them on a whim. I mean wouldn't you buy a pair of flats if they were just 3 dollars? Heck any clothing or accessory under $5 is just an obvious buy. Anyways, these lovelies have gotten a LOT of wear. Much like the skirt I've been trying to not wear them as much. I don't want to ruin them because they are so cute and trendy and work with my style so well. They can be worn casually because they are flats but also can be worn more dressed up. Flats are amazing that way. Everyone should have a fun pair of flats, and for me mine are leopard print.

7. Navy and White Stripped Tee (New York and Company)

(I am aware this is a terrible picture but it shows the shirt!)

This was bought for a winter weekend I think? Or was it priest laurel? I can't remember exactly but some church event. I quite love this shirt and wear it a lot. (Okay I wear all these things a lot!) It's just so me! Navy, white, stripes, casual, comfy, can be dressed up a bit, not your average t-shirt. Perfect right? And I got it on sale for under $20 I believe. Score right?

8. Black Skinny's (Lauren Conrad for Kohls)

(hahahahahahha love the picture. but THESE black pants)

These are not jeans. These are not leggings. These are not jeggings. They are a pant. But a super comfy and stretchy and amazing pant. I love these more than any pair of jeans or leggings. They are nice as a pant because they have structure and stay up like jeans but they are stretchy and comfy like leggings. They are unfortunately not a very spring or summery piece but I can't wait to get back to wearing them for the fall and winter. Black bottoms are so timeless and essential.

9. Navy Cable knit Sweater (Old Navy)

(it's this but in navy... If I find the actual sweater I'll change the picture!)

Now this piece of clothing is OLD. Some time in middle school I got this sweater. I got a little bit luckily. It fits so comfy now. Its navy and back when I got I can guarantee it was not a favorite piece in my closet but it definitely is now. When I don't want to think about what to wear you can bet I am wearing this sweater. I wish it was an all year round piece but sadly it's greatness is saved for colder weather. But you can bet I break this sweater out as soon as possible.

10. Ultimate Short Chestnut Ugg Boots (Ugg Australia)

(except mine are a lot more beat up...)

Wow, it's weird that this is on the list. It's not one of my cutest pieces or one of my most favorite. But it gets a lot of wear. They are not the cutest boots (well what uggs are...) but these really aren't that attractive because of the rubber sole. They are great for the cold and for snow. They are so broken in that I find myself wearing them as slippers even! Ugg boots may not be a great fashionable piece but sometimes comfort really is most important. And even more, dressing for the weather is. The rubber sole makes these great for snow (unlike other ugg boots.) So while they are not the cutest boots on the earth they get a lot of wear because of their practicality. So thank you boots!

1 AM ramblings :)

I don't sleep anymore if you didn't already know this. I am up til about 3 in the morning basically every night, and somehow naturally wake up at 9. I mean it sucks but I guess it's good that my body is learning to adjust to no sleep right? It's like my body just knows what's about to come! COLLEGE! Ha, I am so nervous seriously though. I want to have so much fun but I also want to kick booty in my classes. Is that too much to ask for? I really like Taylor Swifts new single We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together. It's kind of mean but it's catchy. I am SO looking forward to her new CD in October (22nd! perfect timing to slip into a nice Halloween care package mother! hint hint) Anyways, well it's really late here. I am just not tired yet. It's hot and I hate it and can't sleep in it. Plus I've been wearing my retainer again at night and it HURTS so it is making it harder to sleep. SO, I am currently working on TWO different blog posts. They are both posts that take a bit more time to put together, unlike this one which is just me rambling. Yeah, surprising isn't it?! I am actually going to post something other than my ramblings. But yeah, normally I don't put much thought into what I blog. It's a blog and it's mine, why does it matter what I post? It's my space. However this all being true I did want to do these two things. So just wait they are coming- what are they you ask? Just you wait- patience is a virtue (don't worry - I don't have any either!) I really need to pack. It is just weird to think I am moving. Some people don't think of going off to college as moving but to me it definitely is. This new dorm is going to become my room.  Think about it- I am going to be living there more this next year than I am going to be in my room in New York. SO yeah, I am moving. Across the country. Through planes. It's flipping difficult to pack suitcases under 50 pounds by the way. I am very grateful I get free suitcases, I don't know what I'd do otherwise really. I have so much stuff! I mean guarantee I am over packing but would you expect anything less? Anyways, if you are still reading this I consider you a really great friend. NO ONE listens to me when I ramble, much less read my rambles! Ha. That is all for now! Over and OUT. PEACE Y'ALL. (I think I need sleep...)

2 weeks left of summer

So in the beginning of the summer I knew I wasn't going to have a job and wasn't going to have much to do so I made a summer reading list. I have yet to read a single one. Also, in the beginning of the summer I had great ideas for a  summer bucket list. I never actually got around to writing one out or accomplishing anything I had thought of. I mean I have had an okay summer but I wish I did something worth while. I wish I could check off a bunch of things that I have done. But I still have a 2 weeks until I move into college. 2 weeks to do fun crazy summer stuff (along with packing and getting ready to become an adult!) Does anyone have suggestions of what to do? Any good ideas of how I can salvage my summer?

Slight change in plans

Well my mom has been on the fence on whether or not she really wanted to go to Education Week. That was the only reason I was going out to Utah so early for school in the first place. The decision was finally made today though. I will NOT be leaving on the 13th like originally planned. I have a doctors appointment on the 15th and that was the earliest I could get so it looks like we aren't going to be leaving. Which is good because now I have a few more days with my frends here in New York. AND I have more time to pack. I started to get things together today and oh boy, I have a lot more to do that I had thought. In my head I thought packing would be like a 3 day thing, HA! What a joke. My parents basically want my whole room packed up so I have to put the stuff for college in suitcases and then the other stuff needs to be neatly in my room so that if my parents needs to they can pack it easily in boxes. That is if they decide to move. So yeah, I have a lot more to do than I thought. I've only been living in this room for a few years and there is SO much stuff. I can't imagine my friends who have been in their room their whole life, that is just SO much stuff you forget about. All the things you put in boxes under your bed that you can't get yourself to part with? Yeah, that is all crap and I've been throwing away so much. Why did I ever keep old magazines? I threw out about 4 years worth of Seventeen today. Anywho, I thought I'd update everyone who reads this. I can't wait to go out to college but I can already tell, I've got a lot of growing up to do in a matter of weeks. I need to be so much more independent than I am currently. I always have thought that I won't be homesick but I think I am going to be more than I can imagine. I am going to miss my parents so much. They do so much for me that I don't even realize. I just am glad that I don't have to be cooking for myself this year, I would probably die of starvation.

Songs

SINCE I am unable to keep music on my blog (if you know a way for me to do PLEASE tell me!) I thought I'd update you all on my current favorites. Downtown Girl- Hot Chelle Rae, As Long As You Love Me- Justin Bieber, and Blown Away- Carrie Underwood.

14 days!

I am leaving in 14 days. Isn't that just amazing?! We are flying out the 13th of August (that is a Monday.) Then I move in the 22nd (in case you didn't already know this...) Well I am very excited. I haven't started to pack yet but I just keep thinking "I've got time! It's not going to take me that long!" But now that I am thinking about it, it's going to be a process! I've already gone through my closet and gotten rid of a lot of dresses I don't wear or that were too short. So that will be a big help but I've got to go through and decide what I am going to wear while I am out there in Utah before I move in. That week and a half I need clothes and I am going to pack those into a separate bag so it is easier to get to throughout that time. So that is going to take some planning and work and be the hardest part of packing. I am very grateful that my family gets bags free on the plane, I don't know how else I'd do this whole moving to college across the country thing. Everyone flying gets two bags to check plus one to carry onto the plane. My family could fit into two bags so that leaves me with 10!!! AHAHAHA I don't think I could fill 10 bags though. I don't have that much space in college, that is something important to keep in mind. I have such limited storage at BYU that I need to really think before I bring stuff. So although I have a lot of potential bag space I don't have the ability to bring it. What a bummer. Keep in mind I have already brought out 3 big suitcases plus my skis and ski bag. All that stuff (the 3 bags- not the skis of course) filled 3 tote bins. I have to still bring out a bulk of my clothing, the stuff that is out there is like MAJOR winter stuff like super heavy sweaters, uggs, winter coats. Okay, well before I can start packing though I need to clean my room. It is a huge mess. I really hope I am cleaner in college, I've never shared a bedroom so I'm hoping that since I will be I'll be cleaner. Naomi has mentioned how she is big on having the bed made- I currently do not make my bed. I want to pick up the habit of doing so in college though. I have such great plans for myself in college, in my head I am going to be so clean and organized and studious and healthy and athletic and fun and easy going and preppy. Like all the things I'm not. I feel like I have so much time left here and so much time to do all these things I need done but I guess when I look at the calendar I really don't. I have an eye doctor appointment on tuesday (PRAY that my eyes have been fixed and I can wear contacts in college! I love my glasses but I don't want to be the nerd who can't wear contacts and are always in glasses!) And then I have an actual doctor appointment on the 6th of august. I have to apply for jobs at some point (I found this job about being a fish breeder in the biology department- I kind of want it as a joke but I mean it does seem like an easy job.) I need to get a few more things for school clothing- which by the way it's nice going to a new school- I feel like I don't have to get as much new school clothing because these people have never seen my stuff before. Yes, if they stalk me they will have seen it but that is why I want just a few new nice pieces. Okay, well I hope you all enjoyed reading about the exciting life of Kendal and all the important things that run through my mind daily. I promise once I get to college I'll have interesting posts (well that is if I make friends, and if I have any free time...)

I'm horrible at titling my posts...

Thank you MormonProbs for RTing the link to my blog... I now have hundreds more views hahaha. Well I was looking throughout my blog and I realized that of course the USA is the number one country to view my blog but for some ODD reason Russia is second. Whenever I think of Russia I think of like a terrible and miserable and just freezing cold place. Is that like totally false? Well if you are a Russian reading this please do tell me- what is it like in your country? ACTUALLY how the heck are you reading this in English?? It's late here, I should really go to bed. I just am going to keep rambling on and on and on. Oh so I set a goal for freshmen year at BYU. It's so hilarious but I don't think I'm going to reveal it to the internet just quite yet. So be checking back for when I tell of my top goal for the year!

MORMONPROBS

MormonProbs on twitter mentioned me. It was because Emily tweeted to them (and tagging me) a picture of me stalking some of the writers on facebook. I kind of stalk them like all the time. When I can't decide who to stalk I go to one of those four boys... I know I'm creepy but oh well. Maybe I'll meet them at BYU and I can justify my creeping. They can bring up something from 2 years ago and I'll be like "oh yeah ahahah that was so funny! I read about it on FB!" LOL HOW CREEPY WOULD THAT BE IF THAT HAPPENED!?!! Legit I probably could. I have no life, oh well. I really want MormonProbs to follow me on Twitter. And I want to be RTed. Don't I have great goals in life? Yeah well that was all I had to say tonight. Everyone should go stalk my Twitter and see how creepy it all was. I was laughing so hard at how they tweeted back about the picture. HA I still am. And it's been over an hour- signs that I have no life.

Finally

For the past MONTH I have been meaning to call and make an appointment for the eye doctors and for getting a pair of jeans hemmed. I finally did it today. I figured I was leaving soon, I kind of need to get these things done! Well today is kind of a lazy day. My family is all out of the house, its nice having it to myself. Not that I'm doing anything now that I wouldn't be doing if the were here lol. I have to go running today still. Blahh running. But you know what? I really do feel good about myself for running regularly. I hope I keep it up even after the race though. Oh, I'm hanging with friends tonight. That will be fun. Only 3 more weeks until I leave them! Bittersweet. I've been friends with these girls since fourth grade, they know everything about me- the good and the bad. I couldn't have gotten through high school without them for sure so thank you :) Also, thank you for always forgiving me. And lets have an amazing time these next few weeks. We have a lot to do still! Summer isn't over yet!