Waking up this morning it hit me. I am leaving in a few days. I am going to Utah, and not just for a week or so but for months! When my family leaves I won't be going with them! Last night was one of my last nights in this bed for a while. I am actually leaving and not going to see my mom and dad everyday. Its up to me to eat healthy and go to bed and take care of myself. My mom won't be there to remind me to take veggies at dinner. Like how am I supposed to take care of myself? I am so irresponsible and I am so going to just eat ice cream for dinner for a week. Guarantee. I have so much packing to do still :( My room is a mess so I don't feel like cleaning it but I have to to be able to pack. I really am doubting myself and whether I am actually ready to go to college. I now understand the people who take a year off after high school. Man why didn't I think to do that?! Just have another year to keep from going away and being on my own. I don't want to be in charge of myself. I want my mom to come with me and do my laundry and remind me to clean my room and to eat healthy-ish. Ugh, how am I going to survive college? I don't want to go to my classes, they all seem like they will be difficult. I just want to stay home and watch netflix and eat ice cream.
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