Yesterday was a long day. I wanted to go home and sleep and do nothing else. Instead I made myself go to the Feistma's and visit and help. I left feeling good, I left feeling important. Brother Feistma said he was talking about me to another lady who helps out during the week and he told her how great I was. Its a great feeling to know when others talk about you and how proud they are of you. When I was falling asleep I was remembering how Kylie was telling me how she thought I was perfect and how I've got it all together. She admired that. And I feel that's a really good quality I have, even when I'm tired and just not feeling it I fake it and be happy. And it affects others and makes others happy. Other people see me as this happy girl who has everything going for her. And I guess I really do have a great life. I just need to appreciate it as much as others see it. I need to stop faking my happiness and actually feel it.
I love Veterans, I am so grateful for them. Because of all those people who willingly serve our country I am able to live a free and good life. They are so brave and doing such good for me (and everyone else too...) I could never go put myself in a situation where I may get shot, I may die. Yet thousands of people sign up to serve our free country every year. They deserve much more than just one day a year, they deserve everyday because everyday they are serving. Everyday they put their own life on the line so we can be free and have a good easy life.
Today is wish day. 11/11/11. I am going to be more grateful for my life. That is my wish. Maybe I shouldn't tell the world (but honestly who really reads this? basically I am keeping my wish secret) but today I am wishing to be more grateful. I want a change of heart and I want to be happy always. I want to be looked at always like a girl who has everything going for her. I don't want people to see me as sad and depressed and ungrateful-because I am not. I have no reason to be. I can't think of one truly horrible thing in my life. People have things so much harder and worse than I do so I have no right to be moping around when I have so many great things.
It is also my grandpa's birthday today. I wish I could have gone out with my mom for the birthday party I really wanted to but she one-never offered two-realistically I couldn't just leave everything and go. I miss him and I wish I got to see him more. I want to know him better and I want him to know me better. I love my grandpa but I guess I don't really know him as well as I'd like to.
There's no school today. And I plan on getting my project done. I need to. I can't procrastinate it till Sunday. Except my dad wants to go to the movies and to chuckie cheese and do all these family things. I shouldn't complain but on a day off I'd rather sit home all day. Really that's like a perfect day- sitting home and getting work done and just being lazy. I don't get the chance very often to do it.
My new dog Scuba is being really cute and always wants attention. And since I don't like to play she just settles for attention from me in the form of laying on me while I am on the computer or watching TV. She always just lays and lets me pet her. Shes getting big though and sometimes she bites. AND BOY IT HURTS. I have a lot of little bruises from Scuba. But I love her anyways.
Well after this wonderful blog about a million things I'm going to go work on homework and eat food and have a great day off.
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