I like him and I wish I didn't.

I like him and I wish I didn't.  He's a flirt and a player and not interesed in me. He will never really be interested in me. He just likes the attention I give him and he probably gets a laugh everytime I try to be flirty. Why do I always crush on the wrong guys. Everyone tells me how I shouldn't get my hopes up much but I think I already have. I already have. I like him and I wish I didn't.  In my head he likes me and finds me beautiful and smart and funny and he's being shy and secretive right now. He wants to kiss me just as badly as I want to kiss him. He wants to cuddle with me and hold my hand. When we arnt talking he thinks of funny things he can text me to start a conversation. But I know this doesn't happen. I like him and I wish I didn't. He's funny and cute and a flirt and smart and very boyish. We like alot of the same stuff. He's very real but also sarcastic. He's tall. He's a nerd. He has a testimony. He's a bit quiet in a way that makes me want to talk to him. When he starts talking he doesn't shut up. And he makes me smile. We are going through alot of the same stuff right now. I like him and I wish I didn't. He is one of those guys who like having girls like him. He kisses and tells. He is nerdy. He lives far from me. He makes conversation only after I start it. He probably texts 20 others girls just as often as me. I like him and I wish I didn't.