I GOT INTO COLLEGE

29 Nov 2011

Kendal I*****
1770 ******* Rd
**********, NY *****


Dear Kendal:

Congratulations! We are pleased to offer you admission to Brigham Young University-Idaho. Rich blessings and life-changing opportunities await you here.

Below are the next steps in your Admission process:

STEP 1. Learn about the Three Track System: BYU-Idaho operates on the Three Track System, comprised of three equal semesters: Spring, Fall, and Winter. Each BYU-Idaho student is assigned a track consisting of two of these semesters. Please visit www.byui.edu/admissions to learn about this unique system that allows BYU-Idaho to admit thousands of additional students each year.

STEP 2: Submit your track questionnaire: Visit web.byui.edu/admissions/questionnaire to complete a track questionnaire used in the track assignment process. Please complete this questionnaire within one week of receiving this message.

STEP 3: Watch for your email: You will be notified of your track assignment by email within four to six weeks of submitting your questionnaire. More instructions about your next steps will be included in that email.

Once again, congratulations on your acceptance to BYU-Idaho! We look forward to having you on our campus and feel that you will enrich the University.

Sincerely,

Admissions Committee
Brigham Young University-Idaho Admissions Office






Well it's not my first choice. It's my safety school. But I'm in somewhere. I'm going to college next year. Now I await my other acceptances....

I like him and I wish I didn't.

I like him and I wish I didn't.  He's a flirt and a player and not interesed in me. He will never really be interested in me. He just likes the attention I give him and he probably gets a laugh everytime I try to be flirty. Why do I always crush on the wrong guys. Everyone tells me how I shouldn't get my hopes up much but I think I already have. I already have. I like him and I wish I didn't.  In my head he likes me and finds me beautiful and smart and funny and he's being shy and secretive right now. He wants to kiss me just as badly as I want to kiss him. He wants to cuddle with me and hold my hand. When we arnt talking he thinks of funny things he can text me to start a conversation. But I know this doesn't happen. I like him and I wish I didn't. He's funny and cute and a flirt and smart and very boyish. We like alot of the same stuff. He's very real but also sarcastic. He's tall. He's a nerd. He has a testimony. He's a bit quiet in a way that makes me want to talk to him. When he starts talking he doesn't shut up. And he makes me smile. We are going through alot of the same stuff right now. I like him and I wish I didn't. He is one of those guys who like having girls like him. He kisses and tells. He is nerdy. He lives far from me. He makes conversation only after I start it. He probably texts 20 others girls just as often as me. I like him and I wish I didn't.

Fear

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

Think about how hard this truth above is to live. Do you ever live less of a life so that others feel good about themselves? Do you put yourself down? Do you not try for something just so others can have it? Are you fearing the future because you know you'll success and others won't? Are you scared to live up to what you're capable of?

I'm scared now- scared of college. Now I'm applied and I'm actually gonna end up somewhere. I'm not so scared of not getting in as I'm scared of how big a change it's going to be. Living on my own being independent and responsible. I'm scared. I'm fearful. It's becoming an actuality. Am I ready?

Addiction

I have an addiction. I am addicted to checking my email. I am always so curious to see if I got accepted. I just want to get in and stop worrying about it. I want to go to college.

Goal Jeans:)

Guess who fits into her goal jeans?! This giro does! And not even like "squeeze everything in and do a dance to get in" fit but legit just put on like regular jeans fit. I havnt even tried to lose weight I've just gotten back to normal eating routine finally since summer. And most the jeans I bought new this year are loose (which actually kinda sucks but it is good lol).
Yup that's all I had to say. I was cleaning my room and decided to try them like I do everytime I do a big clean. I was so excited I had to blog about it- sad I know but that's me.

Work

In sunday school we talked about work. The importance of it and how God has worked. We also talked about the importance of not idling. When we are idle it is when we are easiest to be tempted by Satan. Constantly working and striving towards something is ever so important to this life. We were sent to earth to be tested- this test is all work. Every second of everyday we are being tested to see if we can truly be perfected and return to God. But perfection is not what the world think of. Perfection is not being a size zero with flawless skin. Perfection is being worthy to live with God again in the highest kingdom of heaven.

I did not idle today much. Well much less so than my typical Sunday. I worked diligently for hours to finish my project for school and then did my other homework due tomorrow. Because of my constant work I finished homework pretty early (8:00 pm) concidering the large sum I had. Then instead of sitting and watching Harry Potter and eating pie, I worked on my college application. I'm so close to finishing it's a bit scary. After I send it in I just wait for my fate. (I should be a poet dontcha think) This worries me- I'm not good at waiting. But alas patience is a virtue and I should learn to have it.

I feel accomplished. I got my work done and then some. I feel good with myself.

What A Lucky Day

Yesterday was wish day. A day when all your wishes can come true. It was a very lucky day for me.

First I want to say thank you to the kind person who put money in the parking meeter for me. I only had 10 cents on me, I put that in knowing it wouldn't last the whole time I was going to be parked there but I just hoped that I didn't get a ticket. Lo and behold, when I get back to my car later in the day the parking meeter has been added too. So thank you very much kind person.

Secondly I want to say thank you to my dad. He did something out of character- He Spend Money. He bought me the last Harry Potter DVD. It basicly made my day. I have stayed up for hours watching Harry Potter but I guess I fell asleep at some point in the night. I love Harry Potter and I'm super sad it is over. But at least I have them all. Thank you so much dad!

I hope today lives up to my good day yesterday!

What Don't I Talk About In This Post

Yesterday was a long day. I wanted to go home and sleep and do nothing else. Instead I made myself go to the Feistma's and visit and help. I left feeling good, I left feeling important. Brother Feistma said he was talking about me to another lady who helps out during the week and he told her how great I was. Its a great feeling to know when others talk about you and how proud they are of you. When I was falling asleep I was remembering how Kylie was telling me how she thought I was perfect and how I've got it all together. She admired that. And I feel that's a really good quality I have, even when I'm tired and just not feeling it I fake it and be happy. And it affects others and makes others happy. Other people see me as this happy girl who has everything going for her. And I guess I really do have a great life. I just need to appreciate it as much as others see it. I need to stop faking my happiness and actually feel it.

I love Veterans, I am so grateful for them. Because of all those people who willingly serve our country I am able to live a free and good life. They are so brave and doing such good for me (and everyone else too...) I could never go put myself in a situation where I may get shot, I may die. Yet thousands of people sign up to serve our free country every year. They deserve much more than just one day a year, they deserve everyday because everyday they are serving. Everyday they put their own life on the line so we can be free and have a good easy life.

Today is wish day. 11/11/11. I am going to be more grateful for my life. That is my wish. Maybe I shouldn't tell the world (but honestly who really reads this? basically I am keeping my wish secret) but today I am wishing to be more grateful. I want a change of heart and I want to be happy always. I want to be looked at always like a girl who has everything going for her. I don't want people to see me as sad and depressed and ungrateful-because I am not. I have no reason to be. I can't think of one truly horrible thing in my life. People have things so much harder and worse than I do so I have no right to be moping around when I have so many great things.

It is also my grandpa's birthday today. I wish I could have gone out with my mom for the birthday party I really wanted to but she one-never offered two-realistically I couldn't just leave everything and go. I miss him and I wish I got to see him more. I want to know him better and I want him to know me better. I love my grandpa but I guess I don't really know him as well as I'd like to.

There's no school today. And I plan on getting my project done. I need to. I can't procrastinate it till Sunday. Except my dad wants to go to the movies and to chuckie cheese and do all these family things. I shouldn't complain but on a day off I'd rather sit home all day. Really that's like a perfect day- sitting home and getting work done and just being lazy. I don't get the chance very often to do it.

My new dog Scuba is being really cute and always wants attention. And since I don't like to play she just settles for attention from me in the form of laying on me while I am on the computer or watching TV. She always just lays and lets me pet her. Shes getting big though and sometimes she bites. AND BOY IT HURTS. I have a lot of little bruises from Scuba. But I love her anyways.

Well after this wonderful blog about a million things I'm going to go work on homework and eat food and have a great day off.

Stuck

I want to blog. I really want to write something that I am feeling or give some insite on life. But I just have no feeling. I have no focus to write something meaningful. I am just stuck-I am lonely and lifeless. I go through each day without much to take out of it. I am just piling on the work and commitments hoping I get stressed- Yes I want to be stressed. If I am stressed at least I am feeling something. I am not angry at anyone but I'm not happy with anyone either. I am just stuck in the middle. I'm just here.Alone. It's a horrible place to be. I need a change, but how do I get it?

Some Pretty Awesome Quotes

"We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence then, is not an act, but a habit." Aristotle

"We cannot ensure success, but we can deserve it." Attributed to George Washington
"Clothes make the man. Naked people have little or no influence in society." Mark Twain
"Your appearance communicates who you are, and you must decide what you want it to say about you." Unknown
"Bore n. A person who talks when you wish him to listen." Ambrose Bierce
"To hear is to forget; to see is to remember; to do it to learn." Chinese Proverb
"Nothing we do, however virtuous, can be accomplished alone." Reinhold Niebuhr
"Let your past make you better not bitter." Unknown
"A teacher affects eternity." Henry Adams
"Begin with praise and honest appreciation." Dale Carnegie
"Seek and you shall find." Jesus Christ
"If you don't measure results, you can't tell success from failure." David Osborne and Ted Gaebler
"If a tree falls in the forest but no one is there to hear it, does it make a sound?" Confucius