I BLOGGED. FINALLY.

I know I am terrible at blogging and every time I do post I say sorry for it. But I am busy at college... or well I like to think I am. Or well, I am very good at spending free time doing funner things than blogging. Anyways, I thought I'd share the First Presidency Message for February- A Word for the Hesitant Missionary (click that!!) This is me. So me. I worry everyday that I don't know enough. I worry I don't know the scriptures and that I don't have a strong enough testimony. I see other people and can see how much more ready they are to serve God and share His Gospel with the world. And when I think about the missionaries from back home I see them as these perfect boys who know so much and have such amazing testimonies and can tell you anything. I think of Christ when I think of missionaries and Christ was perfect. That's my issue- when I think of missionaries I think of people who are perfect. But alas no one is perfect and I will never be. This is something I struggle with and I hope that as I prepare to go I will understand perfection is not expected of me but instead a desire to serve my God. And I have that. I LOVE my Missionary Preparation class SO much. A coincidence my teacher was the mission president for the New York Utica Mission. THAT'S MY HOME. It instantly made me feel closer to him and I really feel like the class is preparing me. I have gained so many great habits in the class that I have wanted forever and finally have been able to keep them up. Since class has started I have read the Book of Mormon everyday for at least 10 minutes. I have said my nightly prayers everyday. I have exercised at least 4 times a week. I have cut back my TV and no longer watch Netflix just to pass the time by. There are other things as well but I am just feeling a lot better about myself. I still feel there is a long way to go before I could even think about starting papers and committing to serving a full time mission for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. But I do know that I love this church and want the world to know how wonderful it is. It makes me a much happier person and I know that I have been blessing to grow up with the knowledge of this Gospel. Anyways, I didn't mean to talk about all this but I want everyone to know that I will serve my God and be His missionary for the world and I will go when I am meant to go.