I'm completly terrified of my classes at byu. I really don't think I am going to be able to handle them all. I want to ease into things but then I look at everything and what I've chosen for myself and there is no way around it. I'm really worried not that I'll get A's but that I'll even pass everything. When I think about bio and chem and American heritage together I get nervous and sick. It's my biggest worry. I am actually paying to learn now so I feel like I've put a ton more pressure to do well. I don't want to waste the money but I just don't know how I'm going to do this. AND you just have to come and lecture me about how important is it to do well. AND THEN you bring up me getting a small job at the college? I know my limitations and I know I can't do that. But since you have worked a job since you were 10 and worked all throughout college me saying I can't handle one is pure insanity to you. I'm sorry but I know what I can and can't handle. And I don't want a job my first semester or I know I will fail. I can't even tell you this though or you'll lecture all about nothing. Well now that I am crying I just hope you know I'm not getting a job this fall. Not with my schedule and it being my first semester at BYU. I'm not.
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