Go away

I don't want to be your friend. I think you are quite pathetic actually. I try to associate myself with people who are going to help me become a better person. You obviously are not going to do that. I don't care, I have plenty of friends. But what bugs me is that you still act like you're my/our friend when no one else better is around. We don't want you there, I know I don't at least. Just go away and keep on pretending you made the right choice. Really though, can you please leave us alone? Stop standing around and trying to make small talk during school. We all know we aren't friends anymore so go away and stop pretending.

Read my blog!

I really like my blog. I like telling the world about my thoughts (not that I spill everything on here, sorry but some things are saved just for the journal.) Anyways, I wish more people read it. I wish I had more subscribers. I'm not writing this for you guys, I write it for me. But I like knowing that people care enough to read my blog on a regular basis. I have over 2,000 views on my blog since I started it. Of course over half are mine no doubt but still that is a lot. I guess I'm thinking about posting the link to this to facebook soon. I was against letting the entire facebook world read my blog at first. This was more of a thing that I let friends in on. But I think I'm proud of my blog enough to share it with everyone. And hey, if I let more people have access to my blog it will most likely be read more. That's what I really want right? Okay, well sorry for  this rant post. Have a good rest of your weekend readers :)

Memorial Day Weekend

This long weekend is such a tease. I woke up thinking it's summer. But I'm going to have to go back to school come Tuesday. That may be the death of me. Anyways, can someone answer my question: What's the difference between Memorial Day and Veterans Day?

Boys

It's been a while since I've had a boy. I miss it sometimes. Having someone to talk to always, someone to call me pretty on a regular basis. But I have grown so much as a person without a boy. I have become confident and I am thankful for that. I don't need a boy. Some people completely change when they get a boyfriend. I hope I never get like that. Even when I find a husband I hope I do not ditch all my friends for him. He wouldn't be worth it. I shouldn't have to change for a boy. I know girls who have done this. They lose their friendships just for one boy. That's not love, love is not choosing between friends and a boy. It's having all of it together. But hey, if you decide to choose a boy over all of your girl-friends then I can't stop you. But couldn't you have the decency so stick with your decision? Instead you go around being a half-friend. Or could you at least stick with your decision about your boy? Cheating is so low. Why would you lose all your friends for a boy, and then cheat on that boy? That is such a trampy move. You lost your friends and you are jeopardizing the boy. Do you put thought into anything you do? When we are young we are taught to make friends, because friends can last forever. Boyfriends do not last forever, not until you meet your husband that is. But in high school one doesn't look for a husband, they look for friends. Too bad you got that wrong. I know friends come first and I don't know where I'd be without them. I look back at high school and all my memories are with my friends, not any past boyfriends. It's a shame you can't do the same.

I'm spoiled, but grateful

I'm the first to admit that I am spoiled. My parents give me almost everything I ask for. They work their butt's off to give me everything. And I'm eternally grateful for this. Because they have been able to give me so much I've been able to have so many opportunities. There is not a day that goes by that I don't thank my parents though. Nor do I ever talk bad about them. I do my best to avoid fighting with them as well. I try to please my parents by doing my best. I don't drink, I don't party, and that's a lot more than most people could say. I know my parents are proud of me for being as good as I am. So you can go ahead and think I'm a bad person because my parents spoil me but I'll just continue on. Go ahead and be jealous. I know I have a great life, better than most, and it is all due to my parents. They have worked hard and given me much. They have taught me to work hard in return. I am so thankful for my parents and I know they have prepared me for life. So while you think because my parents spoil me, I'm going to not be ready for the "real world" think again. Next year living away from them will be difficult but I know I have been taught well.

Quote

‎"For what it's worth: it's never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again."  

--F. Scott Fitzgerald.

Road trip

On Saturday Whitney, Joanna, Andrea, and I went up to Rochester. We met up with some boys and had a fun day. A really fun day. But that's not the point of this blog post. We drove to Rochester. Ourselves. No parents. THIS WAS A ROAD TRIP. It may not have been what I had originally thought of when I thought of my first road trip but it was fun. But guess what? That means something is crossed off my bucketlist.

I saw a birth today

It was the most amazing thing I have seen in my life. I could see myself doing that for my entire life and be more than thrilled each time. It's such an adrenaline rush when the baby is so close to be coming out. Like you can see the head, all it takes is one last push. That moment was amazing. I really want to experience it over and over. I doubt I'll ever forget today.

A.P. BIO

Test is tomorrow. I'm not nervous. Whatever will happen will happen. I've been studying all day, just trying to familiarize myself with terms. What will wreck me tomorrow is when I read a question and don't even know the main words. Wish me luck please!

I'm an AUNT

How CRAZY is that?! Grayson Joseph Powell was born yesterday, May 9th. He was 7 pounds 2 ounces and 19 inches long. He was definitely a struggle to get out. My guess is he's going to be a mommy's boy judging by the way he wanted to say inside Brit for so long. I can't wait to see my little nephew. It makes me feel old to say I am an aunt. But he's so cute! And Brit and Grant are so happy its cute. I'm so happy for them. 

I learned today

Don't judge me because I sin differently than you.

This has been hanging up in our young womens room at church for a while. I really like it. At first when I read it I read it as people shouldn't judge me. Just because my skirts or shorts don't always go to my knees doesn't mean I'm a bad person. Or I don't read my scriptures every day. Or sometimes I slip and say a curse word. Or sometimes I forget to pray for my food. Elder Uchtdorf's quote at first meant to me that others don't have the right to judge me for what I do. Today though it took a different meaning. A much less selfish meaning. I am a very judgmental person. It is something I do struggle with and try to fix every day. But I realized I have been judging a lot of my friends lately. When they choose to go to another activity rather than go to a church one I judge them hard core. To me that's like a big no-no. Church always comes first to me, I skip many hang outs with my friends to be able to go to everything at church. When others don't do the same I judge. Today I realized I can't judge someone for that. Everyone "sins" differently, everyone makes their own choices. As much as I wish I could just have everyone follow me and do what I do I can't. I learned today that I need to accept others more. Maybe they have an issue with going to activities, but they probably do something better than I do, like read the scriptures or dressing modestly. I need to judge people less, I am no where near perfect. How do I expect others to make the same choices as me when they do some other things better than I?

Super Saturday!

This was my last super saturday (it's sad that all these "lasts" are happening.) Three of my best friends didn't even come. I only got asked to dance twice and neither really counted. The Fading Point was really good though. I enjoyed the fireside and te hymns they sung. The spirit was strong while they sung. I wish I had musical talent. They also had a fun concert. The actual dance was short but good I guess. My contacts really bothered me throughout it all infortunately. It was good, Dalton was his fun self. It was nice having Misa there too- gosh I've missed her this year.

Just so you know

Some may think that makes me bratty and selfish. But it's true. I work hard and I get what I want. I really don't look for fights but I just don't accept people disagreeing with me. I know that I'm right. Ask anyone else and they will agree. Fighting with me will do you no good. I always get what I want. 

Every doctor was a student at one point.

I understand every patient has the right to deny students in the room. It is understandable, one's health is a personal matter. I understand it is good to allow people the option to say no. But it just seams asinine that someone would say no. They are willing to have the doctor examine them but won't allow a student to observe?Medicine is tricky that way. You learn from humans. You practice on humans. Without the opportunity to learn and observe, doctors would not be where they are today. Every doctor was a student at one point. They got to where they are because of willing patients. Why someone would turn away students, who are eager to learn, just seams selfish. You are hurting the future by turning away students. Alas, this is going to be someone I deal with for many years. I understand each patient has their own rights and I will not fight them. But I still am going to be upset each time this happens. I would allow any student see anything on me, if they are there to learn why not? I'll always be willing to let someone learn from me. I would be grateful to be used in that way.