Dr. Mom

I know the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints is true, but I also know just as strongly that I am going to be a doctor. Now I'll let you in on a secret: this scares me. I don't think I've been more scared of something in my life. I know how much work I am going to need to put in to achieve this. And I know I'm going to need to study until the end of time. And I'm scared of how hard it is going to be. But I am not scared that I will fail. I know I will succeed but with much effort put forth. Go on, make a joke about how I am such a hard worker- I know you are thinking it. I know God is going to help me because I know this was his plan. When I was younger, a doctor was the last thing on my list of dream careers. Heck, I still HATE going to see the doctor myself. But I know this is for me. And I know when I am struggling in the future I can lean on the Lord and know everything is going to be okay because I didn't pick this. I was content with being a mom. But I guess I am meant for something more. I am meant to help hundreds of lives, not just my families. As I have studied this year and learned more about the medical world I've realized why it is for me. I've realized my hidden love for medicine. And I am grateful for everything I am learning now. I'm grateful for this whole opportunity.

Today is church we talked about women's divine role. For those of you who don't know what that is, the simplest way to put it is women's divine role is to be mothers. We are created to bare children. Physically our body is different than men because of this one thing we are meant to do. But mentally women are more caring and nurturing than men. Those characteristics are used when raising children. I know that I am going to be a mother. I am excited to feel the love for my children that my mother feels for me. And well you may be thinking, how likely is it that I am going to make it through medical school and become a doctor while also being a mom. Well I don't know. I can't answer you yet. But give me 50 years and I'll be able to tell you all about how I did it. I can guarantee it's going to be difficult. I will probably cry a lot. I will most definitely pray a lot for help. But like I said, I know that I am meant to be a doctor and a mother. Those are two ridiculously taxing careers but somehow I will do it. I have prayed and I know that it is what my future holds. So as I said earlier, I am scared but I am excited and this excitement is what is going to get me through these "blah" days.