Guess what!

GUESS WHO STARTED THE MISSION PROCESS?! THIS GIRL RIGHT HERE! If you couldn't tell I am super duper excited. I don't really know why it hit me but it did last week and I realized like I wan to go NOW. I want to start everything and commit myself. I met with my bishop and had my interview. I am currently waiting to get access to the papers online. And I am very anxious waiting. I loved the interview- like I knew why I wanted to go but I loved telling my bishop why. It is not required that I go on a mission which I think it's important that I am so excited. I am choosing to go and am under no obligation. But I love this gospel and love my Heavenly Father and want to serve Him. I want to somehow say thank you for everything I have been giving and I feel by serving I will be able to give back what I have been blessed with. I know back in October when the announcement of the age changed happened I felt like I wanted to go and I told everyone I was going. Since then I have struggled- a lot! I became scared that I was not ready and wanted to wait. I prayed and thought really hard and the past few weeks have made me sure. More than sure. I am so excited and can't wait. I know it is going to be super hard but I am so willing to do it. What is 18 months of hard work after being blessed to have such a nice great life for these past (almost) 19 years. (Notice that I am ALMOST 19!- MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING UP!) I am still scared but I have realized that it is okay for me to be scared. I know that God is preparing people now so that when I go wherever I am meant to go, they will be prepared to hear this wonderful message. And I love that thought. I am excited and I can't wait. I wish I could fully explain my excitement- and I don't even know where I am going to go yet! I really don't care at all where I go. I feel like I would be less scared if I went state-side but I know that where-ever I go is where I am meant to be. 

I hope that I can share the gospel- With those who want to know the truth.

I want to be a missionary- And serve and help the Lord while I am in my youth.

Happiness

I have so much to be grateful for. I need to stop saying I live a boring life and saying that's why I don't blog. Really I life a really really nice life and I'm always doing stuff making me too busy to blog. I am having a great semester school wise. I'm doing pretty good in my class and feel good about things. I love my friends here they are so easy to be with and are constantly making me better. I have an amazing boyfriend who makes me so happy. I have a great ward and bishopric. I love it here at BYU. Everyday I try to thank God for letting me in here. I feel so blessed. This is my dream school and I am here. It is everything I imagined and more. Of course I have days I struggle and wonder why I am here and not at Idaho but I try to remember that it doesn't matter why. I just need to be grateful and I so am. I am so excited about life and so happy. If I look at myself and how I was when I came here in August, I'd say I am almost a completely different person. I feel more confident with myself. I feel more pleased with myself. I feel more excited about life. I have grown so much being here at school on my own. I miss my family a lot and hate how far I am from them but I love that we have such great technology allowing me to call home whenever I get really sad and miss them. I am making a small personal goal for march to try and be happier. To find happiness in little things. I want to stress less. I want to become more perfect. I want to become more like my Savoir Jesus Christ. I love Him and am so grateful for Him. I have learned so much about Christ these past few months and it has made me more and more grateful for Him and his Atonement. I can't wait to go wherever I am needed in the world and teach others the plan for happiness that I have been fortunate to have the knowledge of from my earliest days. I know there is so much in store for me in this life and I need to stop letting time pass by without being grateful for it. I challenge everyone reading this to be happier. Stop complaining (WOAH did I just say that?!) Find more things to be grateful for. You have been given a body and life and have so much potential. I am just barely learning a 100th of my potential and I feel great joy for the future. I know I will succeed if I trust in God and work hard and be happy and I know you can too.

Update on my boring life.

Life is life. It's busy and stressful and I really hate the school side of college. I'm doing pretty well in everything but I work my butt off to do good. The semester is already half over which scares me. I really don't want to go home and leave all my friends who I won't see for a couple years! But I guess it's a good trade-off. Missing my friends as we all go serve :) Anyways, I am excited to see my family. I really miss them. I wish I was better about calling them. Well what else do you wanna know about my life? I'm a terrible  blogger. I just feel like nothing happens that is all that exciting so why share it? I got class and then hang out with Nathan and hang out with the girls in the night. I feel like I never sleep enough. I go to the gym 4 times a week. I actually feel stronger. Now I just need to eat a little better... But I don't see that happening while I have a never ending meal plan. I have really grown to love church and the gospel while here at school. I am so excited to serve a mission and am feeling more and more ready to finally do papers and make it real. I feel like I made the choice to put papers in from home after school ended because I didn't feel ready. But as time goes by I really do feel better and I am learning so much in my Mission Prep class. I am excited to go wherever I am meant to go. But I am going to miss my family so much. I miss them terribly and it's only been a few months and I get to call whenever I want. My birthday is coming up in a month. I don't really feel that excited for it. It's not going to be the same without my mom and without all my friends from home. They know what my birthday means to me. I can't really explain it to anyone else. And it's going to be lonely not sharing the week with Jessica. Plus my birthday is on general conference sunday so I just see myself sitting around all day. Oh well. It's just 19. Not a super important birthday anyways. Anyways sorry that I don't blog anymore. It's just not a priority.