Sick

This is by far the worst sore throat I have ever had. It hurts to talk and swallow and do anything. I'm hungry but know that eating requires me to swallow so it makes me want to eat even less. It's just been getting worse and worse every day.  am eating cough drops like it's chocolate. I woke this morning and it was 100 times worse than the day before...and I thought it was bad yesterday. I really just want to sleep forever but I know I can't. I know I need to keep eating because I'll just get sicker if I don't eat. I am even debating on going to the student health center... and I hate going to see doctors. UGH. If anyone knows how to get rid of sore throats please tell me. I'd love you forever.

Happy Thanksgiving

Thanksgiving this year was good, but it started differently. Every year my grandpa makes everyone list something they are thankful for, but he wasn't here this year and we didn't do that. And on the drive back my brother mentions that we didn't say anything we are thankful for and so my dad has us do it. It's something small but I love those small traditions. And while it's always annoying how my grandpa makes us all wait for food for everyone to go around and say something, I think it's important to share what you are thankful for. And while I told my parents and brother in the car ride home I thought I'd tell all you guys as well. This year I am thankful for

1. Getting into BYU- I think about how different my life would be right now if I wasn't here in Utah and it scares me. Back in February I remember finding out I got in and I couldn't have been happier. I was scared. BYU had been my goal forever, and I reached it. Nothing feels better than accomplishing a long-term goal. And now that I am here I love it, sometimes I question why I am here, there are other people smarter and other people more social but I know that there is a reason I am here. I know my grades and tests and my high school career was just a little above average and I was probably on the edge for getting into BYU but there is a reason I got in. I am trying my hardest to make my most out of college. I am so thankful for BYU. I  get to not deal with all the negative aspects of college like the peer pressure for drinking and drugs and having sex and instead I am making great friends who I can be totally myself with all the time. I really love BYU, way more than I was expecting (which is saying something because I was VERY excited to come in the first place)

2. My family- I am thankful for my dad because of how hard he works for everything. He works so hard and gives me so much. He helps me with everything I need. And while I do get mad at him and we fight I know that he loves me. I am thankful for my mom because without her I'd have nothing. Yes, my dad works hard but without my mom I'd never get a single nice thing in my life. But I also know my mom is understanding and  when I mess up she always forgives me. I'm thankful for everything she has taught me, which is a lot, I couldn't begin to list them. I'm thankful for my sister, me and her do fight but I love her so much, I wish I showed it better. She has been such a great example to me and I don't think she'll ever really know how much she has influenced me. I love that she is close by now that I am at school and I really don't spend enough time with her. It's just hard balancing school but knowing she is close by and there for me whenever I need it is amazing. And lastly, Jacob. I love this guy so much. I can't be with him and not be smiling and laughing. He is the best little brother. He is funny and silly and shy at the same time, it's just so Jacob. There really is no way to explain how amazing he is. He adds so much to our family and I miss him so much while I am at college. WAY more than I thought I was going to, but all these little things remind me of him and his silly ways. I am so thankful for my family and for everything they do for me and I know everything about me is because of how I was raised and how they have influenced me and I love them for that. 

3. The Gospel- I know Jesus Christ lived and died for me. I know that He atoned for my sins and I am so thankful for that. I know that God loves me and that is something I am so thankful for. That knowledge has helped me on many days here at college. Feeling alone sucks but I am always able to get past it because I know my Heavenly Father loves me and that He is always with me. I am thankful that Joseph Smith questioned religion and went to God. I am thankful for Joseph Smith and that God trusted a 14 year old boy enough to start and restore this gospel of Christ through him. I know the Book of Mormon is true and I love learning more about it. My Book of Mormon class is one of my favorites at BYU, 1 because it's an easy grade but 2 because I am learning so much. I really pay so much attention in it and am learning to love this book like none other. I am thankful for this Gospel because I know so much I have is because of my steadfastness in it. 

4. Being privileged enough to have grown up in a strong Latter-day Saint home. I can't imagine my life without growing up LDS. It's such a blessing to know everything. All my questions can always be answered because of this Gospel. I love that I have been able to grow up LDS and have my home ward. I know so many of them, who I regrettably don't know as well I should, love me and care about me. I love this church so much and I am thankful for everyone back home who has taught me throughout my life. While I sometimes feel I don't know anything about the Gospel- I know what matters most. And I know things because of the awesome and caring people back in Binghamton who have taught me in Primary, Young Women's, and Seminary. I am thankful for all the time these leaders have given to the church and how selfless they have been, all contributing to me and my testimony in this church. Thank you.

5. My friends back home- I'm thankful for Morgan and that she is so caring and always there for you. I'm thankful for Sabrina and that she is so accepting and not judgmental at all. I'm thankful for Jessica and how easy she is to talk to and that I've been able to tell her anything and she gives me honest opinion. I'm thankful for Emily and that she is so reliable, I know I can always lean to her and she'll be there for me. I'm thankful for Shaneka and that she is just so funny, she can always put you in a better mood and make you happy. I am thankful for them as a group because I love that we have kept each other good. I will forever be thankful for how good my friends are- I got very lucky and haven't ever had to deal with feeling left out because my friends were going to some party. I know that we can share anything and even though we are all away at different college we can still be friends. 

6. My friends here at college- To start my roommate Naomi is pretty dang awesome. I really don't think I could have gotten luckier. She is so understanding and accepting of me... pretty sure I don't deserve it all. I love that I can tell her anything and that she is open about what she thinks about stuff. I like how she is clean so it makes me be cleaner...most of the time. I really am thankful for Naomi and how great of a roommate she is and how we have become such awesome roommate friends :P Then there is Erica and Hayley and Rachel and Eliza and Kim and Lisa and Brooke and Sami who are just so fun and amazing. I love hanging out with them and I love that I feel so close to them and can tell them stuff so easily. They really have made college awesome.

7. My other friends that don't fit into those categories really like Misa who I am so thankful for. I wish we saw each other more at college but I realize we are both ridiculously busy. That being said she is still the most amazing friend and is always there for me. There is Joanna who I've gotten 10 time closer to now at college and I love that. She basically has moved into my room which is totally fine by me :) It's actually weirder for her not to be in my room one night that it is for her to be in it, and I love that. I like having Book of Mormon with her and meeting her in the stairwell to walk together at 8:43... except that never really happens. And I'm thankful for Whitney and that she has tried so hard to keep in touch with me. I don't want to lose her friendship and I like when we skype and text and tell each other about our friends and boys. I'm thankful for Marshall. I am SOOOO proud of him and that he is on a mission. He has the strongest testimony and loves this Gospel so much. I could go on for hours about how proud of him I am but that'd bore you guys...

I wish I reflected more often about what I'm thankful for. I have been blessed so much and this isn't even a dent. There are so many great things in my life and I should be more aware of them. I hope you all have had a wonderful Thanksgiving and have been able to reflect on your own life. And now with Thanksgiving over that means its Christmas season! Who else is pumped?!

Fun Date!

I know this is late... but I went on a really fun date last Friday and wanted to tell you all about it...even though I've probably told everyone already. Well it started out by me and the guy walking down one of the streets in Provo and we had time to kill. We noticed a bunch of small little ethnic restaurants so we decided to go into each one and try something small. It was really fun and I liked the things we tried. After that we met up with another couple and went to this trampoline gymnastics place thing... There were trampolines and foam pits and a rock climbing wall and a trapeze over one of the foam pits and trampoline basketball. It was a lot of fun. Me just talking about it doesn't do it justice. I actually went back to the place today with my brother. I want to go back again too. It makes me really tired though. It's a pure hour and a half of jumping around- that's really tiring. Well yeah- my brother and parents are in town for Thanksgiving. I'll write about that another time hopefully. Hope everyone is having a great break and holiday :)

I suck at blogging

Sorry for this random blogging. There just isn't much to say and I'm busy! Yesterday I was on campus busy the entire day. From 9 to 6:42 I was on campus in class or with TA's or something. It was rough. I hate days like that. I really like breaks and having time to chill in the library or come back down to my room. But yeah, I haven't been up to much. My parents come this weekend and I am SO excited. I miss them and Jacob so much more than I ever thought I was going to. I can't wait to be done with school on Monday (I have one class and I have to meet with a TA after that class but then I'm done and ready for break!) But I get to spend time with family and just relax. I don't have a ton of homework either.. I don't think I do at least... So yup, that's really all I had to say. Sorry I don't blog but there isn't much to talk about. I live a boring college life. I'm just trying to do well in my classes (and I am now...) and I hang out with friends...but I also sit on my computer way too much. Oh well. Hope you are all having a great day :) 

My weekend

I'm really happy. Today started off a bit off but it has ended really good. There is a boy here at school and he's really nice and sweet and he likes me a lot. And I like him too. And it's just fun. And I like my friends here- I had such a fun time with them Friday night- we went sledding! And made an AWESOME snowman. You can stalk my Facebook for pictures. Saturday I was super lazy all morning then finally got up and ready and went on a date with the boy from above :) and then I went to the last home football game. I went to every home game this year. I really love football. Even though we aren't the best I still get pretty into the games. Saturday's game was FREEZING. I couldn't feel my toes by the time I left.. and I left a little after half time.. and I got there late. But it was fun while I was there. I saw Marshall which was super nice- he enters the MTC on Wednesday. I am so excited for him. And I'm so proud of him. And I can't wait to get his letters and hear all about his amazing stories. Well today was Sunday  I had church. I went to Brit's for dinner which was really nice. It's nice to get off campus and be in a home once in a while- as much as I love college being in a home with family is always relaxing. Plus it helps that I have the CUTEST nephew on the planet. I for sure am his favorite aunt. He gets so happy when he see's me! I'm very grateful that I am this close to him and get to see him a lot. Well I hope you all have enjoyed my little weekend update. Can't wait for this week to be over- I have a full week of classes, 2 essays due at the end of it. But on Saturday MY FAMILY IS COMING TO UTAH! And I couldn't be more excited. I miss them all so much. I really didn't think I was going to miss them as much as I did. And I get super jealous of the family stuff they do. And I miss having dinner with them at night (especially when they make my favorite thing ever- like crab legs- like they did tonight!!! UNFAIR.) But they are coming! So soon. I can't wait. This week is probably going to last forever. Oh and one last thing HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANDPA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know he reads this and I'm glad he does. I don't call them enough but hopefully because he reads my blog he can know about my life :) Well Happy Birthday! Thank you for being such an awesome grandpa! I love you :)

Sick

I have a headache. It hurts to move around. It feels like my head is beating. And it's making me feel nauseous. Any strong smells at all make me want to puke. And I don't have the energy to do anything but be in bed. I hate this. It's friday night and I'm in my room. The basketball home opener is tonight and I'm missing it and I'm sad. This sucks.

My life is kind of boring. Sorry.

Joanna tells me I need to blog more. Which is weird coming from her considering I'm with her a majority of my day... And I tell her everything that I would blog about anyways. But basically nothing has been going on. Like I honestly can't think of anything significant to tell you all. Sorry I live a boring college life. I go to class, I do my homework, I eat (a lot...). Oh I've been called as an Indexer at church. And I actually really love it- it's super addicting. I've only done it for one day and I have over 100 names indexed. It's a good thing I don't use my laptop in most my classes or that's probably what I'd be doing in them. My parents are coming out next weekend for Thanksgiving and I am super excited to see them. That's really all I've got to look forward to right now. Well sorry this really doesn't say much but there just isn't much to say so BYE.

Dilemma

I could go out with friends and see a movie I really don't care to see at all or I could stay in by myself and watch Netflix. I know I should be social but I really do not want to see this movie. I feel like if I went I'd probably pay 10 dollars to see a movie I don't care about and then fall asleep in the theater. So I just decided: I'm staying in. On a Friday night. At college. But who cares- I don't. Having Kendal time is great. I've got the room to myself for a while and I can lay under my heated blanket. This sounds great. Oh maybe I'll make popcorn too! See now I'm excited for my night in. YAY. Blogging always helps me make a decision.